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[frozen_fire_]

so its over. wow.

i just couldnt take the cycle of i care about you, i dont anymore. it happened over and over.

I seem to care more that its over than he does and im the one who broke up with him. he obviously wanted it to end. what a lovely feeling this is.

you told me you still like me. i know youre just lying again though. youve been lying for weeks. every "i still love you, im so sorry i made you doubt that" was just a lie. why youve led me on for so long is a mystery to me when you could have easily ended it right then and there. instead you chose to make me do it. i cant think of any situation harder than what i felt when i walked toward you, repeating my speech in my head, only to forget it as soon as i opened my mouth. you knew i was going to end it even before the "i need to talk to you". and you dont care at all.

if only things never changed. if only his feelings never changed. if onlys are pointless.

i never wanted it to mean this much to me when i said yes. caring is horrible.

okay ill stop being emo. sorry.