REVOLATION!!!!!
life is, well, complex at best. i realized that i can sustain two jobs, working 65-70 hrs. a week, and still maintain a band. i make about 1600 a month which isnt much by anymeans but im well on my way to getting things that way i want them to be. i just wish i knew answers to all the little questions im having along the way. its almost like i feel like i know exactly what im doing but than in an instant im totally lost. all i do is keep myself busy. usually a 16 hour work day will suffice. if i only work one job on certain days i go crazy. and if i, by some miracle, have a day off... well i wont get into that. i think i might be interested in getting a membership at a gym. i heard caribou gets discounts at lifetime so i might look into that. i have recently stopped eating so much and its paid off i guess. i lost about thirteen pounds and am hoping to make it fifteen before i start working out. and just so its not under speculation anymore, i am drumming for kissy face. you can call me gay if you want to, but we sell a lot of shit and every show that ive played with them so far has been off the hook. looking forward to a few days in canada next week as well. oh and thew family. everything seems to be stable with my folks. i need to call my dad and my brother, and my sister, and my aunt, and my grandpa, and my grandma. oh wow. hmm.... then theres the love life. i dont really know how much i can say about that one. one minute i think its over cuz i guess im a jerk, and then i guess its back on track(if you can call it that, meg, you'd be better at explaining that one) again. but then again love isnt somthing to talk about online. overall im a very happy young man. if i actually commit to what i want then everything should be ok for me. not that anyone really cares. there are somethings that i miss. and i guess losing things is part of growing up. but i miss people, just everyone, people in general. what happened to all of you? there used to always be somthing social to do and now its totally dry. not that i really have time to engage in such activities, but really. its quite saddening. i miss partying with my friends and meeting new and interesting people from different places and telling funny party stories about them. or just party stories in general.
well i guess i have to get up for my 17 hour work day tomarow. and then i guess im obligated to go to mikes birthday party. although its probably not that good of an idea, seeing as though i work all day sunday as well. thank god for xr 20's.
i guess all i want is to know that people still think of me from time to time. i really just feel that no one gives a shit about me anymore. or maybe thats just life? maybe i still do have friends? hmm?
thank you,
me
well i guess i have to get up for my 17 hour work day tomarow. and then i guess im obligated to go to mikes birthday party. although its probably not that good of an idea, seeing as though i work all day sunday as well. thank god for xr 20's.
i guess all i want is to know that people still think of me from time to time. i really just feel that no one gives a shit about me anymore. or maybe thats just life? maybe i still do have friends? hmm?
thank you,
me