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School forces me to take a break from listening to music. I spend so much time over there in music land that I just want to come home and do something out of a musical context for a little bit. But when I do listen to music it's a sort of epiphany- especially with classical music.
I know it's sappy to say, but classical music can make me cry still. The passion, control, beauty, irony- it's like they're trying to explain life. I don't want a soundtrack to go along with ym life like in the movies because I fear that I would lose this sensitivity to music and it's power over me. I know when I listen to music that all I want to do is be a part of it in every way- I'm not the best but I couldn't leave music just because I'll never be the best. There's too much of me that still responds to music in every way- even after four years of critique being pounded into me day in and day out, countless hours of going "no that isn't good enough." That's the way passion is meant to be, knowing that through it all you haven't become hardened or snide about things considered "lesser," just more appreciative of complexity and simplicity and passion as it is presented in every context.
I know it's sappy to say, but classical music can make me cry still. The passion, control, beauty, irony- it's like they're trying to explain life. I don't want a soundtrack to go along with ym life like in the movies because I fear that I would lose this sensitivity to music and it's power over me. I know when I listen to music that all I want to do is be a part of it in every way- I'm not the best but I couldn't leave music just because I'll never be the best. There's too much of me that still responds to music in every way- even after four years of critique being pounded into me day in and day out, countless hours of going "no that isn't good enough." That's the way passion is meant to be, knowing that through it all you haven't become hardened or snide about things considered "lesser," just more appreciative of complexity and simplicity and passion as it is presented in every context.