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Life is currently frustrating. I need a vent right now, so this is going to be it.
There's too much to do and not enough time to do it (as per usual), but this time I really truly care. I've spent 8 months putting this recital together and it's never consistent. I just want to can it and go play something that I like and can achieve. What's sad is that it doesn't really emphasize my strength in music. I can play the hell out of Brahms and other things that require elegance and aren't overly technical. I have that ability, I think I can get Debussy like that. That's a hard piece to get to that level too. But nothing is as hard as the Nielsen. Absolutely nothing is that hard, and I feel like every other day and every other hour of that day I can play it. I know that it's in my brain somehow, but it's just not working.
Then there's Bassett... if I can concentrate then I'm fine. I can nail the runs, I can nail the music. For some reason this is a strength in my program. Unfortunately it comes during the second half. I'm starting with Nielsen.
I can't play an hours worth of music in a row... my lips won't handle it. Thank God my recital is before the opera... I'll have fresh lips for it. Who cares about the opera....
Oh yeah, Dr. Rudge cares about it. I can't have him jumping down my throat... he only adds stress to my life. I think I'm going to skip Free Improv next week so that I can relax and practice before the first performance of the opera.
I can't get together with my accompanist between this Sunday and my recital... unless I somehow do it on November 9th after he arrives and before the opera. Let's kill my lips some more... yay!
NYSSMA.... more over, preparing for NYSSMA sucks. I'm almost done with my part though. All I have to do is finish the point totals and post it tonight, and then collect money. And do the release request from SA...
Foundations... I have a handle on it. I have almost everything read, all I have to do is type my part. Which I've already read my part... I just have to do it and expand it. That's the project for this weekend. I also have to prepare piano parts and sing while I'm playing (never done that before). Oye... Dr. Mayo why can't you just make it do the week before Thanksgiving rather than during the week from hell.
I have my topic for World Music picked out, but two out of 4 of my articles don't work. So I need to find at least 2 more. Although the ones that I have offer a lot of information that is useful background knowledge and may go into my paper. I also have to do my interview and find videos and music.
I can do all of this. I can get this all done and do well... if fact I will. I'm just going to be dying over the next week. It's probably best if you see me to not talk to me cause I'll probably be ready to kill someone.
And it's not anything against you, it's more likely that I'm upset and my own limitations...
Go figure that I had to be human and not superman, right?
There's too much to do and not enough time to do it (as per usual), but this time I really truly care. I've spent 8 months putting this recital together and it's never consistent. I just want to can it and go play something that I like and can achieve. What's sad is that it doesn't really emphasize my strength in music. I can play the hell out of Brahms and other things that require elegance and aren't overly technical. I have that ability, I think I can get Debussy like that. That's a hard piece to get to that level too. But nothing is as hard as the Nielsen. Absolutely nothing is that hard, and I feel like every other day and every other hour of that day I can play it. I know that it's in my brain somehow, but it's just not working.
Then there's Bassett... if I can concentrate then I'm fine. I can nail the runs, I can nail the music. For some reason this is a strength in my program. Unfortunately it comes during the second half. I'm starting with Nielsen.
I can't play an hours worth of music in a row... my lips won't handle it. Thank God my recital is before the opera... I'll have fresh lips for it. Who cares about the opera....
Oh yeah, Dr. Rudge cares about it. I can't have him jumping down my throat... he only adds stress to my life. I think I'm going to skip Free Improv next week so that I can relax and practice before the first performance of the opera.
I can't get together with my accompanist between this Sunday and my recital... unless I somehow do it on November 9th after he arrives and before the opera. Let's kill my lips some more... yay!
NYSSMA.... more over, preparing for NYSSMA sucks. I'm almost done with my part though. All I have to do is finish the point totals and post it tonight, and then collect money. And do the release request from SA...
Foundations... I have a handle on it. I have almost everything read, all I have to do is type my part. Which I've already read my part... I just have to do it and expand it. That's the project for this weekend. I also have to prepare piano parts and sing while I'm playing (never done that before). Oye... Dr. Mayo why can't you just make it do the week before Thanksgiving rather than during the week from hell.
I have my topic for World Music picked out, but two out of 4 of my articles don't work. So I need to find at least 2 more. Although the ones that I have offer a lot of information that is useful background knowledge and may go into my paper. I also have to do my interview and find videos and music.
I can do all of this. I can get this all done and do well... if fact I will. I'm just going to be dying over the next week. It's probably best if you see me to not talk to me cause I'll probably be ready to kill someone.
And it's not anything against you, it's more likely that I'm upset and my own limitations...
Go figure that I had to be human and not superman, right?