dear my sunshine

[frostyroses]

i can't really remember since when, but i started to develop these feelings and eventually they bloomed.

they are growing

bigger and bigger

more overwhelming then before

i dream of your face and how it'd feel to embrace you in my arms

telling you that

i love you

you are my everything

you understand me, and i'll do my best to keep you safe

but at the end of the day

amidst all dreams and imaginations i hold onto

i, in the end, dream of killing my own feelings after facing them

in my dreams

they are all about

i speak to you, voicing out my feelings

i love you

but in return you say

no, don't come near me

relationships we've built over the years

the trust you've put on me,

they'd be all gone

vanished along with the single thread of hope

hope that you might feel the same way

that's why i swear

i will never destroy our relationship

our friendship

in order that

you might love me the same right now

and not end up hating me

though, even if

you say go away

i will

if it's your will

my dear sunshine