I wish...

[frostypop]

I wish I could forget you
forget how much I love you.
But you haunt me;
you haunt me like the spirit of my failures

Would that I could take a knife
and cut you from the inside of my heart
the way one pops out the pit of a cherry,
or cuts out a slice of cake.

I wish I could stop wanting you
wanting you to touch me,
But I want you to love me
the way I still do you.

I would wait until the sun stopped shining,
wait until the Earth stopped spinning
for you to touch me again
and make my nerve ending sing.

I must be stupid.

I must be blind.

You put me in a fog
and I don't know if
I even want to find my way out.