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[frostydancer]

so tonight...

tonight I saw all the happy people.
I wish i could have a smile that wide.
But i can't.....it won't strech.
so when i am in the crowd.. it tells me
to give in...act like them. so i try
but when i am alone with my mind. It won't let me
smile.....won't let me have peace.
I can not simply be glad....because when i go home
that silly grin is wiped from my face...
i wish it didn't go away. I hate being alone with
my mind...i hate letting it wander..
i wish i had an optismistic mind.

when will it stop>?

I love Stacey D.
and Amanda P.
that is all.