Browsing
I've been browsing through my LJ posts from the past couple of months and I've noticed a few changes.
I don't make public posts anymore. In fact, more than half of my posts are private. Whatever I had left of my optimistic streak from last year is more or less gone. I think this year just got off to a bad start for me, for a multitude of reasons, and I'm having trouble dragging myself out it. I'm not going to let it defeat me or anything, but I feel hampered, like I'm walking around with balls and chains around my feet.
I have to fix up my resume and make myself presentable by Friday. I want a job and an internship that's anywhere but here. A part of me want to leave the state even. It's time. I need to grow up. I've recently made the realization that my parents would never do anything to push me out of the nest. That extra step in independence is going to be something that I have to take on my own.
As far as housing is concerned for next semester...it's going to get expensive, but not any more expensive than what I'm paying right now at Northwood. I love Jen to pieces, but I think I'm done with apt/room-mates. I think in the past year and half, I've become over-reliant on the people around me and that flaw has become painfully apparently now that Jen's hardly around anymore. I don't want to be so needy. Besides, it'll just hurt more in the end when everyone's gone.
I promise that the next post will be a cheerful one. :)
I don't make public posts anymore. In fact, more than half of my posts are private. Whatever I had left of my optimistic streak from last year is more or less gone. I think this year just got off to a bad start for me, for a multitude of reasons, and I'm having trouble dragging myself out it. I'm not going to let it defeat me or anything, but I feel hampered, like I'm walking around with balls and chains around my feet.
I have to fix up my resume and make myself presentable by Friday. I want a job and an internship that's anywhere but here. A part of me want to leave the state even. It's time. I need to grow up. I've recently made the realization that my parents would never do anything to push me out of the nest. That extra step in independence is going to be something that I have to take on my own.
As far as housing is concerned for next semester...it's going to get expensive, but not any more expensive than what I'm paying right now at Northwood. I love Jen to pieces, but I think I'm done with apt/room-mates. I think in the past year and half, I've become over-reliant on the people around me and that flaw has become painfully apparently now that Jen's hardly around anymore. I don't want to be so needy. Besides, it'll just hurt more in the end when everyone's gone.
I promise that the next post will be a cheerful one. :)