Bleh
Hey guys. Wow, I update alot recently. Well, with the reading of past journal entries... I got up until 2004. I don't feel like reading it anymore b/c it pointless since I know what all has happened since then and b/c it is actually really depressing! I didn't realize it until JUST NOW, but since this school year has started, 9 people I knew died! How jacked up is that? Let's see, Raquel, John, Jamie, my Uncle Frank, Jack, Marvin, my Aunt Ruth, Jessica and my second cuzin, although I didn't really know him. But how shity is that? 1 true good thing happened, which was Preston being born, but that is all I can think of. Everything else is crappy. I don't know anymore. Just thought I'd share.
Today I haven't done anything. Last night I wasn't tired, until finally around 3am I decided I was, well OF COURSE Blair and my mom got here then. They were loud for like 20 mins then Blair left and I could go to sleep. I woke up around 1 something b/c my mom was making sausage, gravy and biscuts and made me wake up. She went on a run, then asked if I wanted to go shopping with her, and I actually declined. Scary huh? Me not wanting to shop! I don't know. I just took a shower and soon need to do laundry. I have just felt really off this whole weekend, I don't know why. It sucks with so many people being in NY! Bleh on them. Last night I didn't even do anything, or all weekend for that matter. Friday I was going to invite someone over, but they made other plans, then last night I was, but for some reason couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't know. It's weird. Last night someone, not saying who, asked if I wanted to pop a movie in and make out with a friend... lol. As tempting as it was, I didn't. I also got yelled at for it too by Noell! Haha. I have alot on my mind right now though, especially after reading all those entries. It's like, when I'm with someone, I'm so happy at first, but after awhile, I don't know, I just get bitchy. I want to change that b/c now that I re-read them, I see why things turned out how they are with some people. Makes me feel like shit. Also on my mind is college, working, high school... arg... life is annoying. I wish there was a way I could spend more time with my sister and her family. I miss them. I saw them last weekend, but I miss them alot. And I miss Aaron. Not in the way of "seeing each other", just having him there for me to vent to. *Sigh* I don't know. I need to just stop trying with guys. Last time I did someone wonderful walked into my life, although I ruined that, I'm hoping I can get that lucky again. We'll see I guess. I don't know... I am just ready to be happy again with someone. Well, this is turning into pointless rambles... I'm going to go...
*smooches*
***me***
(Damn, I HAVE to do my puppet show tomorrow! YUCK!)
Today I haven't done anything. Last night I wasn't tired, until finally around 3am I decided I was, well OF COURSE Blair and my mom got here then. They were loud for like 20 mins then Blair left and I could go to sleep. I woke up around 1 something b/c my mom was making sausage, gravy and biscuts and made me wake up. She went on a run, then asked if I wanted to go shopping with her, and I actually declined. Scary huh? Me not wanting to shop! I don't know. I just took a shower and soon need to do laundry. I have just felt really off this whole weekend, I don't know why. It sucks with so many people being in NY! Bleh on them. Last night I didn't even do anything, or all weekend for that matter. Friday I was going to invite someone over, but they made other plans, then last night I was, but for some reason couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't know. It's weird. Last night someone, not saying who, asked if I wanted to pop a movie in and make out with a friend... lol. As tempting as it was, I didn't. I also got yelled at for it too by Noell! Haha. I have alot on my mind right now though, especially after reading all those entries. It's like, when I'm with someone, I'm so happy at first, but after awhile, I don't know, I just get bitchy. I want to change that b/c now that I re-read them, I see why things turned out how they are with some people. Makes me feel like shit. Also on my mind is college, working, high school... arg... life is annoying. I wish there was a way I could spend more time with my sister and her family. I miss them. I saw them last weekend, but I miss them alot. And I miss Aaron. Not in the way of "seeing each other", just having him there for me to vent to. *Sigh* I don't know. I need to just stop trying with guys. Last time I did someone wonderful walked into my life, although I ruined that, I'm hoping I can get that lucky again. We'll see I guess. I don't know... I am just ready to be happy again with someone. Well, this is turning into pointless rambles... I'm going to go...
*smooches*
***me***
(Damn, I HAVE to do my puppet show tomorrow! YUCK!)