Random thoughts... update at bottom...
Well, I was thinking about something, well... someone, last night. It was out of nowhere. Actually, it's probably b/c I've had a dream about him everyday this week. I don't know how the dreams came about, but they are here. It's about Aaron. I miss him terribly. It really saddens me how we haven't talked since... wow, I don't even know. Like October maybe? Possibly even before that. (Oh wait... no around Christmas b/c he wanted me to go to Ohio for New Years! I so shoulda now that I think about it...) And I haven't saw him since we went to Florida back in July! I just have been thinking about our "summer". It was so awesome. The Mest song, Rooftops, reminds me of it so much! It was probably the best summer yet. Him and I hung out and talked all the time, I even got to stay over his house and everything. Although we weren't actually dating, it was so nice and I was so happy. My biggest regret is not ever kissing him. lol. I was going to this summer in Florida. One night him and I were walking along the beach under the stars (SUCH a romantic setting) and he named a star after me (Angel... his nickname for me) and told me I had the most beautiful smile he's ever seen. It was so perfect... but I didn't kiss him! Maybe it was me doing the right thing and knowing he had a girlfriend. (Even though she was a cheating bitch to what he said who he was going to dump anyways.) Even over summer of '01 I didn't kiss him. Not after any of our dates or anything. I always had those butterflies when I was around him and was ALWAYS smiling. I felt like a lil girl, all shy and whatnot although I knew him better then anyone else. It was odd... but awesome. Well yeah, like I was saying, I miss him so much. Last time we talked we ended up fighting, and him and I NEVER fight! And the worst part is we haven't even talked since then. Plus now there is more stuff going on with him which makes me feel REALLY crappy that we don't talk b/c we've been best friends for like 3 years! I don't know... but I think we fought b/c he was screwing up his life! He was dropping out of school and all... well, I recently found out he is taking night school classes and doing really well in them, and starting to straighten up his act. (I know he is doing it for me, at least part of him is, b/c I told him I would never marry a guy without a high school diploma or GED... and since he wants to marry me and all... haha). Yeah... I don't know. I just miss him alot. And last night I looked through my lj from when I first got it, (man was I a ditz... way more so then now!) and I was such a bitch to him sometimes, but he didn't care. He was always so nice to me. I feel really crappy, and worse b/c I can't talk to him. I know he has a cell though, but I just can't bring myself to call him, I want him to call me and tell me whats going on with his life. But I think he is afraid to... actually, I'm almost positive he is! There is a good reason, but yeah... it's personal. Also, I know him and his dad don't fight as much and he obviously doesn't hate him as much as he used to (His dad is awesome and I love his dad so I would yell at him when he would hate him...) b/c he called him when we were at dinner when I was in Ohio. Greg even told him he was sitting right next to me... I wish I knew what Aaron woulda said to that... :/ Kinda sucky. But yeah... my sister just asked me if I would go to Jeff and Jill's wedding (Oct. 16th! Far away, but still) to help with the kids since David is in it and of course I said yes. Besides, I am practically a Merritt. They basically adopted me (which is fine by me b/c that family is awesome! Besides, if all goes as planned, I will be one... Greg still calls me his daughter in law! haha!) Well, I told my sister yes and I was like "I'll get to see Aaron!" (although I sure hope I see him before that!) and shes like "Yeah, and even dance with him!" And put a lil face... haha. It's good times. Anyways... this is all rambling. I'm sorry, I just miss him b/c he is one of my best friends... we'll see what happens with him! I hope his life is going well... I want to be able to talk to him like I used to and just talk for hours about problems! He is the best listener! haha! (Good advise too...)
Okay, now for my update...
German~ ANNA TAUGHT THE CLASS! Omg I wanted to kill myself! We played Jeopordy in groups and Anna was like, "If you raise your hand you have to answer or its automatically wrong!" WTF! She's so gay! Kristy was like "Go back to Germany!" haha... Yeah, our team was in the hole the entire game till the final question and we made an ultimate come back and won! LMAO! How? NO IDEA!
Keyboarding~ We had a sub who just sat there and Mrs. Allen basically taught us... why did we even need a sub? I am on lesson like 12 now... bleh!
Child Care~ I was supposed to do my puppet show, but Danielle and I both have to wait till Monday to go. Man... all I'm gonna say is good times in that class! lol...
Lunch~ Came home again... ate some cereal! LOL! Danielle and Courtney brought some in bags and got spoons, bowls and milk from the class and ate it, so it made me want some... lol.
Soc Lab~ Omg... copies, copies, copies and 10 million staples! Bleh! That was only in the office too. Mrs Majors keeps me so busy when I'm in there, then I go to her class and am even more busy. It's not bad though, it's fun. Today we went to the libray and they worked on the computers. My teacher left and left me in charge... so here I am, trying to give out presidents, mark who has which one and how many they have done, figure out whos checked out books and who hasn't then send them to do that... then run around and answer questions! OMG! Those stupid computers suck! (Actually, they are practically the same as mine, but their internet SUCKS!) So yeah, none of the internets were working right and I was like, "I don't know what to tell you guys! Its a dumb computer!" And I said "Heck" and Kimmy was like "Awww! You said the h word!" No hun... besides, shes a second grader, I'm SO sure she's never heard that before! LOL! I was by Pat alot today and he just talked to me like all day... that lil boy is SO cute! He has such neat handwriting too and I told him, b/c honestly, its better then 90% of the guys I know around my age, plus like 50% of the girls too! He blushed and was all like "THANKS!" haha... How cute! Yeah, then I left, got gas, cleaned my windows (SORTA) and came home. My mom is off to work now... finally and I think shes gone for the day! Wohoo! But I am bored, and I have no plans for the weekend, so if anyone wants to do something, lemme know! I'm sure you all have my aim name or email (or its on my user info) or my cell number! Actually, I know you all do! Okay... well, I'm gone... thanks for being bored! It t'was fun boring the hell outta everyone! Later!
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