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so lately things have been good but weird, but still good.
not working is making me really annoyed, so i think i mite just go apply at the county grill tomorrrow. i really didnt want to but my cousin blake works there again & seeing brittany just hires the hostess' now, i mite have a chance haha.
i know the place real well & i wanna waitress anyways, i just dont wanna deal with all the bullshit that comes with working there. but i need money like woah so lets see how this goes.
was feeling really depressed last time i wrote anything, just ignore that..things are getting better. i just go through random spells of depression & i dont know why. i guess thats everyone really or it just goes through my family. sometimes all this doctor shit on top of everything else is overwhelming. sometimes wrong with my bladder & i have a refferal to a psychiatrist. everyone claims your psycho if u go to one, but i really wouldnt mind, plus if my insurance covers it then i think it would be a good experience, or something.
idk i just feel drained & i dont even do anything everyday besides hangout, but i think that could be the reason why. i cnat wait to be working again & having my own money. i think itll make me feel alot better.
my dads really stressed out about everything too, which makes me sad all the time.
my aunt donna just came for about a week tho, so that got all my family in high spirits for a while. so that should last a good while until she comes back. (for some reason the whole family is obsessed with her, so when she comes to town, they act like they all took ten e-pills.)
dankdog is back to normal again too. no more weird depression/limping/stupid bullshit.
i missed brandnew, tacking back sunday/angels & airwaves, and the reel big fish tour already this summer. that bummed me out alot.
the biggest things i regret in life are always the shows i didnt get to go to. it always makes me feel sick.
buuut! atleast 311 the wailers & pepper are coming..and warped tour too. so i deeefinatly not missing those:]
josh corralles was here for a good month. it was so fun having him around again. i missed that kid & really bummed that hes back in cali now. but he atleast got to stay for a month which was alot longer than i thought he was gonna stay, so atleast he got to come period.
i feel like im complaining alot but i dont mean to. alot of shit just been getting to me that usually doesnt. i jsut feel like i dont even know what to do anymore.
things will pick up soon tho, once i get a job, get all my doctor shit straight & i have christmas to look forward to<3
in march my lease is up for this apartment then i think im going to go month-to-month leasing while my dad builds a house big enough for everyone to live there. im so excited to live with my dad again. plus my brother will prob. live with us too & hes oddly nice now. he used to be such a prick but it seems like he grew up & let his guard down & just realized that being depressed & retarded wasnt worth waisting his time. he goes to church & smiles & laughs & calls to check on me. soo rad.
time for me to crasssh
picking up billy from vabeach tomorrow, a derma appt., blood work, & dentist.
somehow im going to get it all done.
be well<3