i cant sleep
its almost six & i cant sleep..so i figured id write a bit in here
whats goin on in the world of samantha u wonder?
well well welllll..
since i last wrote..i finally moved back home. even tho my gloucester house was "only" thirty minutes or so away..coming from a place where the maximum time to drive is about 07-10 minutes...it fucking sucked. it made me so depressed to where i just stopped doing everything. i wouldnt hangout..jsut go home. i wouldnt clean..just slept. wouldnt do laundry. wouldnt eat there. nothing. i hated my life. sometimes i think i love york county too much its unhealthly. but whatever makes me happy i guess. moving back here is probably the greatest feeling ever. i love this place & everything it has. i love the familiar faces, places, & my family. i just love everything here. i dont ever want to move again. i dont care if i go visit rome..or florida. or jamaicia. i dont have money for that shit. i just want to stay here with my family. & whatever friends i have that also never want to leave. haha. i moved into grafton station. my dad signed a lease with me here so that i could get the place. its a simple one bedroom with a lot of closet space & rooms big enough for all my shit & then some. i love it. its comfortable & happy with high ceilings & a lovely huge porch on the third story. ive been waiting for a year now since we moved out of our old house to move back here to a place that felt like home & that i could be happy in. & i finally have it. im so thankful my dad helped me get this place. he said he would just do anything to make me not depressed & it worked. hes so good to me. its amazing how much jsut living back here again has changed my life in just like two weeks. im so happppyyy again & i just love my life & everything again. ajtheoighg :D
work is still good. we all finally got used to our new manager & can tolerate him now that we know how he works. & my dad said i didnt even have to get a second job. yaaay.
still no intrest in anyone. id be nice to like someone again, but i honestly dont really care. im content being single. less confusion & less to think about.
ive loved long strong & hard..& when the time comes..ill be ready to do it again :)
until then..im doing juuuust fine on my own<3<3
whats goin on in the world of samantha u wonder?
well well welllll..
since i last wrote..i finally moved back home. even tho my gloucester house was "only" thirty minutes or so away..coming from a place where the maximum time to drive is about 07-10 minutes...it fucking sucked. it made me so depressed to where i just stopped doing everything. i wouldnt hangout..jsut go home. i wouldnt clean..just slept. wouldnt do laundry. wouldnt eat there. nothing. i hated my life. sometimes i think i love york county too much its unhealthly. but whatever makes me happy i guess. moving back here is probably the greatest feeling ever. i love this place & everything it has. i love the familiar faces, places, & my family. i just love everything here. i dont ever want to move again. i dont care if i go visit rome..or florida. or jamaicia. i dont have money for that shit. i just want to stay here with my family. & whatever friends i have that also never want to leave. haha. i moved into grafton station. my dad signed a lease with me here so that i could get the place. its a simple one bedroom with a lot of closet space & rooms big enough for all my shit & then some. i love it. its comfortable & happy with high ceilings & a lovely huge porch on the third story. ive been waiting for a year now since we moved out of our old house to move back here to a place that felt like home & that i could be happy in. & i finally have it. im so thankful my dad helped me get this place. he said he would just do anything to make me not depressed & it worked. hes so good to me. its amazing how much jsut living back here again has changed my life in just like two weeks. im so happppyyy again & i just love my life & everything again. ajtheoighg :D
work is still good. we all finally got used to our new manager & can tolerate him now that we know how he works. & my dad said i didnt even have to get a second job. yaaay.
still no intrest in anyone. id be nice to like someone again, but i honestly dont really care. im content being single. less confusion & less to think about.
ive loved long strong & hard..& when the time comes..ill be ready to do it again :)
until then..im doing juuuust fine on my own<3<3