going psychotic
i'm finding sanctuary in the things that mattered most to me. fuck drugs, fuck the way i spend my money so callously, fuck my inability to sort these trivial emotions out. fuck these dreams, fuck my laziness, and most of all, fuck myself for letting it get this far.
i'm officially broke. couldn't even pay for school this semester. thank god for friends like justin who loans me money when i need it most. i feel my own disappointment. i'm really going to focus on school this semester. no more partying, not like i was.
i grad this semester and i'm so scared of what will happen after. uncertain, like before. no real plans. i'm enjoying my youth, but fuck, i need a plan. it will all work out, it always does. it's just getting through this self-berrating phase. unnecessary maybe, but still needed.
i just wish i had someone to look up to, someone to guide me through this phase. i feel like i'm going through a mid-life crisis but i'm only 22.
i'm a psych major in need of a psych.
how ironic.
i'm officially broke. couldn't even pay for school this semester. thank god for friends like justin who loans me money when i need it most. i feel my own disappointment. i'm really going to focus on school this semester. no more partying, not like i was.
i grad this semester and i'm so scared of what will happen after. uncertain, like before. no real plans. i'm enjoying my youth, but fuck, i need a plan. it will all work out, it always does. it's just getting through this self-berrating phase. unnecessary maybe, but still needed.
i just wish i had someone to look up to, someone to guide me through this phase. i feel like i'm going through a mid-life crisis but i'm only 22.
i'm a psych major in need of a psych.
how ironic.