SOMEONE SHIT ON MY LIFE
Well folks, here's my life about now...
My manager quit. Got a better offer at another store. Different company. He was one of the reasons I love working at that store so much. He likes me, loves having me as an employee. He's a good guy. Plain and simple. I knew from working with him, even for the short time I did, that I would hate my new manager, whether they were good or not, because Greg is so cool. And I probably will. I was upset. And yeah, I cried.
I have finaly decided the guy I liked at work, just wanted to fuck me. So... fuck him. Although I am sure it would have been fun, it wouldn't have really been worth it. I layed and thought about what little life I had left in me was taken away from me because of Mark just wanting to take advantage of me. For whatever reason, I felt ugly, and ashamed of myself. Maybe for thinking that I just should, just to say I did. Talked to Brian about him last night, and he told me not to be like mayonaise. It spreads easily. Said he gives me a lot of shit, but dosen't want to see me get hurt. Made me realize that I need to focus on people that actually may give a shit, no matter what I think. Brian is not engaged by the way.
And boy did I want to talk to Tyler last night.
Chances are, I will move to central oregon. Not a whole lot to stay here for. Yes, friends. But even with friends, I wouldn't have time to spend with them if I had to keep myself together trying to go to school, and work, and keep my sanity. Not sure how I could ever make ends meet over here without a miracle.
Basically, I want to keep my job, I don't really want to go to school right now, and I don't want to live out in the middle of fucking nowhere with my parents and no friends. But it seems right now, that it really is the best option in the long run.
I really don't know what the hell to do with myself anymore. And that is my life, shit on.
My manager quit. Got a better offer at another store. Different company. He was one of the reasons I love working at that store so much. He likes me, loves having me as an employee. He's a good guy. Plain and simple. I knew from working with him, even for the short time I did, that I would hate my new manager, whether they were good or not, because Greg is so cool. And I probably will. I was upset. And yeah, I cried.
I have finaly decided the guy I liked at work, just wanted to fuck me. So... fuck him. Although I am sure it would have been fun, it wouldn't have really been worth it. I layed and thought about what little life I had left in me was taken away from me because of Mark just wanting to take advantage of me. For whatever reason, I felt ugly, and ashamed of myself. Maybe for thinking that I just should, just to say I did. Talked to Brian about him last night, and he told me not to be like mayonaise. It spreads easily. Said he gives me a lot of shit, but dosen't want to see me get hurt. Made me realize that I need to focus on people that actually may give a shit, no matter what I think. Brian is not engaged by the way.
And boy did I want to talk to Tyler last night.
Chances are, I will move to central oregon. Not a whole lot to stay here for. Yes, friends. But even with friends, I wouldn't have time to spend with them if I had to keep myself together trying to go to school, and work, and keep my sanity. Not sure how I could ever make ends meet over here without a miracle.
Basically, I want to keep my job, I don't really want to go to school right now, and I don't want to live out in the middle of fucking nowhere with my parents and no friends. But it seems right now, that it really is the best option in the long run.
I really don't know what the hell to do with myself anymore. And that is my life, shit on.