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I have a lack of motivation, to do practically everything.
I went gym hunting- because I think I've gained 5 pounds now.
I'm busting my ass to do the Memory Book only to have to go back and re-do pages and what not.
I feel like Ryan and I haven't talked in ages, but we hang out every day.
My room is a complete mess and I have no desire to clean it except to pick through the clothes to find a load of laundry.
I'm letting myself go.
Its like I'm looking for something more in life.
My parents talk to Ryan more than they talk to me.
My friends care about everyone else more than me.
I really don't fucking feel like ANYTHING anymore and I don't give a shit about anything or anyone and I keep living this facade where I pretend to be happy because I should be happy but I'M NOT FUCKING HAPPY.
I went gym hunting- because I think I've gained 5 pounds now.
I'm busting my ass to do the Memory Book only to have to go back and re-do pages and what not.
I feel like Ryan and I haven't talked in ages, but we hang out every day.
My room is a complete mess and I have no desire to clean it except to pick through the clothes to find a load of laundry.
I'm letting myself go.
Its like I'm looking for something more in life.
My parents talk to Ryan more than they talk to me.
My friends care about everyone else more than me.
I really don't fucking feel like ANYTHING anymore and I don't give a shit about anything or anyone and I keep living this facade where I pretend to be happy because I should be happy but I'M NOT FUCKING HAPPY.