=] how do describ love like this
I feel so different when he is gone.. It didn't really hit me till today when he had to go home early.. I became depressed slept on and off all day... not even depressed, more like... i didn't feel completely myself. There is a piece of me missing when he isn't with me...There is one spot on my bed that ...this sounds funny but...smells like him...and it made me miss him even more... I didn't get to talk to him before work cause he got picked up went home and got ready for work... So i slept and played kingdom hearts 2 for the most part...
This weekend was awesome...minus the whole fact that i was super emotional stupid freaking emotions...i had a lot of fun...Sean definitely is perfect for me... Friday night after taking all day begging Karyn to come she came with us to see Across the Universe. Both Karyn and i grew up listening to the Beatles since our parents were huge fans so we knew like almost every song... I very much enjoyed the movie. It definitely had its own unique qualities, the illusions and imagery expressed was beautiful and the mix of Beatles music portrayed through these characters was extraordinary. The flow was a little interrupted by its abruptness into certain parts of the story line. Sean didn't really enjoy the movie which made it slightly more difficult for me to be able to sit there an enjoy it but i loved it none the less. The story line for some is hard to grasp but i was able to at least understand it. After the movies Sean and I invited Karyn over and my emotions decided to take sharp right hands turns without signaling to me. I came home an instantly felt upset...like i wanted to cry..everyone was off doing there own thing including Sean talking to Patrick so i went and took a shower..which i cried then got out, changed and went to cry to my mom about things. I wasn't ready for Sean to see me cry especially when i felt that i was being emotional over nothing and i was afraid to ruin anyones weekend. He instantly knew something was wrong without me having to say anything..even after I hid from him.. he sees the signs that i hide so well..i feel so lucky.. anyway.. that night Karyn and i had an interesting conversation and we talked away until everyone went to sleep and then Sean and I went to sleep.
Saturday morning Sean and I woke up early went for a walk. I showed him the good parts of Hamilton the places i go to be alone. The area I usually have circles was destroyed which upset me deeply, I wanted to go clean it but had nothing to pick up the stuff with so i might go back and do that this week. We went to the little play scape and went on the swings and things XD. We came home to go right back out to go Roller Blading at Roller Magic which i have not done since i was in 6th grade. I was okay at it.. I only fell twice and I got a lot better towards the end. Sean looks good when he skates he is really good at it. It was a blast. I loved it. After wards we decided to go out to eat with Karyn and her friend Monique to Home Town Buffet for food we invited Patrick. The ATM ate Sean's card XD i couldn't stop laughing..Monique was really cool. We got along really well.. i actually cried i was laughing so hard! I think something was in the food. We came up with a whole new list of words to replace other words..."Did you ask your muffin about the buffalo" "I will talk to you on the oyster" Sean thought it was funny later on when he understood it. We came home and Sean and I watched Firefly and Serenity...and ^_^ had fun...mmhhhmm...then finally fell asleep..this morning we stayed curled up and he kept tickling me XD...and i felt so comfortable and safe falling back asleep on him right before mark came and picked him up...
It was definitely one of those weekends i can say i won't forget.
He said that I make him feel useful, important, that i took away the empty feeling he had. I got sad cause i thought i was messing things up and he told me it would take a lot to mess things up with him. And when he saw me cry when Wash died in Serenity he told me i looked just as beautiful and that my eyes sparkled and i looked great... i was like aww..*insert a tackle hug*
=] When someone can read you even when you are actually hiding things...you know there is something specail there...
ISN'T THE SAME
When you're gone away
My heart feels such dissary
Stuck in this off beat way
Just come back to me
When I feel so wieghed down
You easily lift me off the ground
Listen to the sound
Of my heart beating for you,
you see
Come back now
Wrap me up in your arms
Take me back to the stars
Cause its just another way
You save the day
Bring that sparkle i always loose
Breathe into me
This recipe
Of perfection lost at sea
This weekend was awesome...minus the whole fact that i was super emotional stupid freaking emotions...i had a lot of fun...Sean definitely is perfect for me... Friday night after taking all day begging Karyn to come she came with us to see Across the Universe. Both Karyn and i grew up listening to the Beatles since our parents were huge fans so we knew like almost every song... I very much enjoyed the movie. It definitely had its own unique qualities, the illusions and imagery expressed was beautiful and the mix of Beatles music portrayed through these characters was extraordinary. The flow was a little interrupted by its abruptness into certain parts of the story line. Sean didn't really enjoy the movie which made it slightly more difficult for me to be able to sit there an enjoy it but i loved it none the less. The story line for some is hard to grasp but i was able to at least understand it. After the movies Sean and I invited Karyn over and my emotions decided to take sharp right hands turns without signaling to me. I came home an instantly felt upset...like i wanted to cry..everyone was off doing there own thing including Sean talking to Patrick so i went and took a shower..which i cried then got out, changed and went to cry to my mom about things. I wasn't ready for Sean to see me cry especially when i felt that i was being emotional over nothing and i was afraid to ruin anyones weekend. He instantly knew something was wrong without me having to say anything..even after I hid from him.. he sees the signs that i hide so well..i feel so lucky.. anyway.. that night Karyn and i had an interesting conversation and we talked away until everyone went to sleep and then Sean and I went to sleep.
Saturday morning Sean and I woke up early went for a walk. I showed him the good parts of Hamilton the places i go to be alone. The area I usually have circles was destroyed which upset me deeply, I wanted to go clean it but had nothing to pick up the stuff with so i might go back and do that this week. We went to the little play scape and went on the swings and things XD. We came home to go right back out to go Roller Blading at Roller Magic which i have not done since i was in 6th grade. I was okay at it.. I only fell twice and I got a lot better towards the end. Sean looks good when he skates he is really good at it. It was a blast. I loved it. After wards we decided to go out to eat with Karyn and her friend Monique to Home Town Buffet for food we invited Patrick. The ATM ate Sean's card XD i couldn't stop laughing..Monique was really cool. We got along really well.. i actually cried i was laughing so hard! I think something was in the food. We came up with a whole new list of words to replace other words..."Did you ask your muffin about the buffalo" "I will talk to you on the oyster" Sean thought it was funny later on when he understood it. We came home and Sean and I watched Firefly and Serenity...and ^_^ had fun...mmhhhmm...then finally fell asleep..this morning we stayed curled up and he kept tickling me XD...and i felt so comfortable and safe falling back asleep on him right before mark came and picked him up...
It was definitely one of those weekends i can say i won't forget.
He said that I make him feel useful, important, that i took away the empty feeling he had. I got sad cause i thought i was messing things up and he told me it would take a lot to mess things up with him. And when he saw me cry when Wash died in Serenity he told me i looked just as beautiful and that my eyes sparkled and i looked great... i was like aww..*insert a tackle hug*
=] When someone can read you even when you are actually hiding things...you know there is something specail there...
ISN'T THE SAME
When you're gone away
My heart feels such dissary
Stuck in this off beat way
Just come back to me
When I feel so wieghed down
You easily lift me off the ground
Listen to the sound
Of my heart beating for you,
you see
Come back now
Wrap me up in your arms
Take me back to the stars
Cause its just another way
You save the day
Bring that sparkle i always loose
Breathe into me
This recipe
Of perfection lost at sea