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I've come to a realization that I am the only individual that knows fully what the details are on the things i have gone through and i'm the only person who knows my thoughts and feelings; those that assume they know or come to state that "oh your just saying that we know you really feel or were doing this cause...etc" don't know me at all...and its okay because I moved on.. I did things for me and stopped carrying about dating i just had friends and yet somehow things turned out the way they did. And for once i didn't do anything to change the situation it just happened. Fate one hundred percent controlled the situation and if you knew the circumstances and the scenario that played out you would see that the statement everything happens for a reason is completely true.
I am happy, I was happy before, I dealt and got over it but things were meant to be a certain way and I don't care who has an opinion the only opinion that matters is his and mine honestly. I do care what others have to say but if i don't agree you can't get mad at me for it. I've tried really hard to fix things with people whether they notice it or not. Its not my fault if circumstances aren't in my favor. With my schedules being different then others. Right now my mother is one of my best friends. I can't be the only one trying .. i make effort but it always doesn't work out.. i can't always get rides so find me one... i can't always call so you leave me a message..i just feel like somehow i get the blunt of the blame...but i would never give up on anyone so of course i will still try
But again on good note things are like wow... i'm talking to old friends, new friends ...spending time with people including my mom whenever i get a chance...and yet still find time to be where i want to be at the end of the night.. and now with even more changes on the rise it will work out even better. ^_^ i feel really happy and have decided to live in the moment because i don't know what tomorrow holds but i know of today and the past is behind us for a reason and every morning is a chance to make things better whether you decide to take them or not..
i'm sorry i'm an optimist now...i have to much hope things will work out and sometimes hope is good
=] even if i break for it.. i know i was suppose to be here today doing these things regardless..
i know my journal entries are so cryptic right now and sound repetitive but omg <3 ^_^ EP!!!
*dances* i will write a more descriptive and updated entry when i find the time sometime this weekend =]
p.s. i believe whole heartily in my gut now.. because i kept thinking i was wrong denying my gut.. and i was right all along.
btw i am writing this at 9am with absolute no sleep in the past 24 hours and won't sleep for another 12 because of school and the most anticipated Wolverine movie which i can't wait to go see tonight omg.. and my nice epic adventure with monica which is gonna be great too .. then sleep spend time with my mom friday afternoon go out with justine sometime this weekend, hangout hopefully with kelly, and see if dad wants to spend time with just me and go to quassy on sunday while all the while coming back here and spending time with Cam our new puppy who is so sweet ^_^ *though god he needs training but its a proccess* lol
I am happy, I was happy before, I dealt and got over it but things were meant to be a certain way and I don't care who has an opinion the only opinion that matters is his and mine honestly. I do care what others have to say but if i don't agree you can't get mad at me for it. I've tried really hard to fix things with people whether they notice it or not. Its not my fault if circumstances aren't in my favor. With my schedules being different then others. Right now my mother is one of my best friends. I can't be the only one trying .. i make effort but it always doesn't work out.. i can't always get rides so find me one... i can't always call so you leave me a message..i just feel like somehow i get the blunt of the blame...but i would never give up on anyone so of course i will still try
But again on good note things are like wow... i'm talking to old friends, new friends ...spending time with people including my mom whenever i get a chance...and yet still find time to be where i want to be at the end of the night.. and now with even more changes on the rise it will work out even better. ^_^ i feel really happy and have decided to live in the moment because i don't know what tomorrow holds but i know of today and the past is behind us for a reason and every morning is a chance to make things better whether you decide to take them or not..
i'm sorry i'm an optimist now...i have to much hope things will work out and sometimes hope is good
=] even if i break for it.. i know i was suppose to be here today doing these things regardless..
i know my journal entries are so cryptic right now and sound repetitive but omg <3 ^_^ EP!!!
*dances* i will write a more descriptive and updated entry when i find the time sometime this weekend =]
p.s. i believe whole heartily in my gut now.. because i kept thinking i was wrong denying my gut.. and i was right all along.
btw i am writing this at 9am with absolute no sleep in the past 24 hours and won't sleep for another 12 because of school and the most anticipated Wolverine movie which i can't wait to go see tonight omg.. and my nice epic adventure with monica which is gonna be great too .. then sleep spend time with my mom friday afternoon go out with justine sometime this weekend, hangout hopefully with kelly, and see if dad wants to spend time with just me and go to quassy on sunday while all the while coming back here and spending time with Cam our new puppy who is so sweet ^_^ *though god he needs training but its a proccess* lol