teenage drama
this last week has been quite a week. a perfect portrayal of my teenage drama:
sunday- happy day with love in the air... literally in a symbolic way.
monday- pushed too far, i said a lot of things id been thinking for a long time but never dared to say, cried my eyes out for the first time in a long time. gma-induced family dispute.
tuesday- gma leaves and family life resumes to normal. failed algebra. love life takes a mysterious, unexpected blow. made a mildy successful attempt to restore my friendship with chris.
wednesday- for the first time ever, i LEARNED CHEMISTRY (thank you Mr. Gonzales!) and UNDERSTOOD THE HW, tht i did in the most productive class period of wHist that ive ever had. afterschool, went out to eat with cast, came back and watched the plays. loved theatre, and in effect(through its affect), loved life
thursday- failed algebra. last rehearsal. tired. stressin' out. ryan was absent.
friday- amused myself and others by dressing as ethel and doing the ethel walk all day, especially during the play. ah, the play. I loved it! it truly was an experience ill never forget, and i am extremely grateful to all who took place in it, everyone there that night. thank you so much for everything... your support, your compliments, your presents.. you dont know how much it meant to me. Ive never felt so beautiful while looking so ugly.
It was really so much fun, and felt so good. You see, our acting is full of hidden honesty. In truth we were just a bunch of teenagers, who acted our hearts out to make you laugh. We may have been in costume, in character, but we all put so very much of ourselves out there. What in life can one hope to accomplish other than pleasing people by drawing out whatever talent you have in you to do so? We messed up so many times, but the show went on successfully. Such is life. And after a long while of feeling like ive been so busy without accomplishing anything, the success of the play made me feel successful and accomplished in life. I think it was the first time in a long time that i was proud of myself.
After we striked, everyone (from all the plays) got in a big circle, senior directors in the center, each sitting in thier own directors chair with colors corresponding to thier future college. There mrs cornwell presented Katherine Gee, my beloved director, with an award/plaque. She is the third to ever recieve it, in the 18 years it has been in available. She couldnt have deserved it more. I almost cried for her, i love her... she is the first person i have ever really thought to myself "i want to be like that when im older." She is so amazing, as beautiful inside as she is outside... i feel so lucky and honored to have known her, to have been in her last play here. Everyone was hugging and crying, and i dont know how i managed not to cry too. I went home and, feeling wide awake, went in the hot tub and talked with shannon... didnt go to bed till after 3:30.
The End. the end of the day. the end of the play. the end of rehearsals... ill not spend hours with my cast every day... these people i have become friends with... the end of being so busy.. the end to the stress...it felt quite like the end of the year...
I feel distant from you all, my friends. ive been busy and it seems to have gotten in the way somehow. i hope to hang out with you all more now... i miss you.
I wont discuss my love life. I had a few realizations though... and on a brighter note, this guy i hardly know gave me a rose! it was so sweet!
that was long. so incase your scanning, let me just say again: THANK YOU madi and stacie and others for being there for me
sunday- happy day with love in the air... literally in a symbolic way.
monday- pushed too far, i said a lot of things id been thinking for a long time but never dared to say, cried my eyes out for the first time in a long time. gma-induced family dispute.
tuesday- gma leaves and family life resumes to normal. failed algebra. love life takes a mysterious, unexpected blow. made a mildy successful attempt to restore my friendship with chris.
wednesday- for the first time ever, i LEARNED CHEMISTRY (thank you Mr. Gonzales!) and UNDERSTOOD THE HW, tht i did in the most productive class period of wHist that ive ever had. afterschool, went out to eat with cast, came back and watched the plays. loved theatre, and in effect(through its affect), loved life
thursday- failed algebra. last rehearsal. tired. stressin' out. ryan was absent.
friday- amused myself and others by dressing as ethel and doing the ethel walk all day, especially during the play. ah, the play. I loved it! it truly was an experience ill never forget, and i am extremely grateful to all who took place in it, everyone there that night. thank you so much for everything... your support, your compliments, your presents.. you dont know how much it meant to me. Ive never felt so beautiful while looking so ugly.
It was really so much fun, and felt so good. You see, our acting is full of hidden honesty. In truth we were just a bunch of teenagers, who acted our hearts out to make you laugh. We may have been in costume, in character, but we all put so very much of ourselves out there. What in life can one hope to accomplish other than pleasing people by drawing out whatever talent you have in you to do so? We messed up so many times, but the show went on successfully. Such is life. And after a long while of feeling like ive been so busy without accomplishing anything, the success of the play made me feel successful and accomplished in life. I think it was the first time in a long time that i was proud of myself.
After we striked, everyone (from all the plays) got in a big circle, senior directors in the center, each sitting in thier own directors chair with colors corresponding to thier future college. There mrs cornwell presented Katherine Gee, my beloved director, with an award/plaque. She is the third to ever recieve it, in the 18 years it has been in available. She couldnt have deserved it more. I almost cried for her, i love her... she is the first person i have ever really thought to myself "i want to be like that when im older." She is so amazing, as beautiful inside as she is outside... i feel so lucky and honored to have known her, to have been in her last play here. Everyone was hugging and crying, and i dont know how i managed not to cry too. I went home and, feeling wide awake, went in the hot tub and talked with shannon... didnt go to bed till after 3:30.
The End. the end of the day. the end of the play. the end of rehearsals... ill not spend hours with my cast every day... these people i have become friends with... the end of being so busy.. the end to the stress...it felt quite like the end of the year...
I feel distant from you all, my friends. ive been busy and it seems to have gotten in the way somehow. i hope to hang out with you all more now... i miss you.
I wont discuss my love life. I had a few realizations though... and on a brighter note, this guy i hardly know gave me a rose! it was so sweet!
that was long. so incase your scanning, let me just say again: THANK YOU madi and stacie and others for being there for me