Still your face is young
I seem to be ending each summer with a weird doctor visit. Thats a pattern I don't want to keep, because well, like i said they are WEIRD visits. I don't even know what to think about todays. I'm trying to wrap my mind around this idea, but I dont want to accept that there is a problem. Amanda and mom already know. There is ONE person i really want to talk to about this, i feel like it might make you think of me differently. I dont know if i'm overreacting or what. i just dont know.
School starts in 16 days, senior year meh. I keep thinking about how I don't even feel ike a freshman let alone a senior. Graduating came up so quickly, i was at brookes the other day and her mom was talking about announcements, its just so gaaah i dont know. another thing for me to try to understand i guess.
I finally quit coldstone after talking about it for a year. But i don't feel like it was my best choice, but I have to move on from it, and i understand that. I got another job but im not really looking forward to it, because they seem to be kind of sneaky about things. And perky, really really perky. hahaha Im sure they are all really nice, and i shouldnt say anything.
I'm so sick of all the serious-ness last year brought. I want to have fun, the kind of fun i used to have. I miss laughing so hard id cry. errm Suinday night? (i think) was one of the first nights in a long time it seems where i was just laughing at stupid things. Thats what i love love about me and amanda. We can honestly laugh about anything. She has put up with me through this whole shitty year.
3rd time really must be the charm because that format show was so amazing. I've never been in one room with so much of every good emotion. I can't even describe it. ok thats not true i can, i did. I have so much respect for people who can get up on stage, or 'stage' and do whatever it is they love most. I love music and singing, but its hard for me to decide on what it is that i am THAT passionate about.
It kind of makes me sick how much i push things sometimes. People say things like well just let it be and it will work out. that is SO hard for me to do, and i can't figure out why. I feel helpless i guess if i just let go.
hahaha ANYWAY me, me , ME.
Take me to the zoo?
School starts in 16 days, senior year meh. I keep thinking about how I don't even feel ike a freshman let alone a senior. Graduating came up so quickly, i was at brookes the other day and her mom was talking about announcements, its just so gaaah i dont know. another thing for me to try to understand i guess.
I finally quit coldstone after talking about it for a year. But i don't feel like it was my best choice, but I have to move on from it, and i understand that. I got another job but im not really looking forward to it, because they seem to be kind of sneaky about things. And perky, really really perky. hahaha Im sure they are all really nice, and i shouldnt say anything.
I'm so sick of all the serious-ness last year brought. I want to have fun, the kind of fun i used to have. I miss laughing so hard id cry. errm Suinday night? (i think) was one of the first nights in a long time it seems where i was just laughing at stupid things. Thats what i love love about me and amanda. We can honestly laugh about anything. She has put up with me through this whole shitty year.
3rd time really must be the charm because that format show was so amazing. I've never been in one room with so much of every good emotion. I can't even describe it. ok thats not true i can, i did. I have so much respect for people who can get up on stage, or 'stage' and do whatever it is they love most. I love music and singing, but its hard for me to decide on what it is that i am THAT passionate about.
It kind of makes me sick how much i push things sometimes. People say things like well just let it be and it will work out. that is SO hard for me to do, and i can't figure out why. I feel helpless i guess if i just let go.
hahaha ANYWAY me, me , ME.
Take me to the zoo?