C.A. Sullivan, 2008-11-26
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Clark murders Lex.
Smallville is still in Kansas, but Metropolis is in Illinois. Clark wears a cape of all things and he's picked up flying. But it's three years earlier than it is here.
I'm not a part of his life. No way to know if I even exist, but apparently I'm no significant part of Clark's, Jimmy's, or even Lois's lives. Talk about making a girl feel unimportant.
And Clark kills Lex.
I can't get past that. I know it didn't even happen in the reality that bat-guy comes from, but it did in whatever other alternate reality he visited. Clark - my Clark - would never be capable of that. For everything Lex has done, as hard as Clark's fought to stop him, there's a part of him who still thinks of Lex as his friend. He's had a million opportunities to kill him already and I can't believe he ever would. No matter what Lex does to deserve it.
Do I tell Clark about this? Should I? I don't know. I need to think about this. It's so much to take in.
The idea that Clark and Jimmy and Lois and Oliver are off living basically the same lives, only without me... Damn it, that bugs me. It shouldn't, but it does. I've felt like I've done so much good since finding out about Clark, like I've really made a difference, to Clark and in the world. But this makes me wonder if maybe I haven't made any significant impact at all.
All right, not a word to Clark or Jimmy about this. Not yet. Hopefully that guy won't rush off looking for Clark just yet. Who knows if he'd even be able to find him? Aternaville's a funny place.
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Clark murders Lex.
Smallville is still in Kansas, but Metropolis is in Illinois. Clark wears a cape of all things and he's picked up flying. But it's three years earlier than it is here.
I'm not a part of his life. No way to know if I even exist, but apparently I'm no significant part of Clark's, Jimmy's, or even Lois's lives. Talk about making a girl feel unimportant.
And Clark kills Lex.
I can't get past that. I know it didn't even happen in the reality that bat-guy comes from, but it did in whatever other alternate reality he visited. Clark - my Clark - would never be capable of that. For everything Lex has done, as hard as Clark's fought to stop him, there's a part of him who still thinks of Lex as his friend. He's had a million opportunities to kill him already and I can't believe he ever would. No matter what Lex does to deserve it.
Do I tell Clark about this? Should I? I don't know. I need to think about this. It's so much to take in.
The idea that Clark and Jimmy and Lois and Oliver are off living basically the same lives, only without me... Damn it, that bugs me. It shouldn't, but it does. I've felt like I've done so much good since finding out about Clark, like I've really made a difference, to Clark and in the world. But this makes me wonder if maybe I haven't made any significant impact at all.
All right, not a word to Clark or Jimmy about this. Not yet. Hopefully that guy won't rush off looking for Clark just yet. Who knows if he'd even be able to find him? Aternaville's a funny place.
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