Feb 27, 2005 23:21
i forgot that cmon die young is one of my favorite albums. i hope this makes me punkrock. i miss falling into a subculture. i dont wear my homemade clothes enough.
i forgot how m. ward sounds like someone who reminds me of him. how much i miss sewing. how much more motivated i am when i have no means of doing anything. i hate that i am that kind of person. all talk. maybe not. i am determined to prove myself wrong. but usually i am right about these things. i have been overanalyzing myself for years. but always room for error.
i miss my heels. i always feel like a boy. and i want to be tan again. for some reason joy division reminds me of a summer yet to be had. maybe this one coming.
ive got it, m.ward has my old pediatrician's voice. i think i just ruined it for myself.
why dont i have time for recreation. this is bullshit. lucky i love school this semester...