isnt it funny?
isnt it funny when saturday nights are spent alone hoping jackson will sleep for more than five minutes at a time without being held? i am sick of making bottles, changing diapers, playing mom....playing mom? shit im not playing i am. sometimes i just feel like i am so not capable of doing this. i just want a big long break. say until im about twenty five and married. i dont like doing this alone. it really sucks. went to node with joey last night. interesting to say the least. that kid hasnt changed at all. still the same ol same joey. i wish jackson had a dad that loved him and took care of him. hm.....wouldnt that be something. sure would alright. well at least we've made it through today. time to try and get some sleep while he is sort of sleeping.