Guy moments?
Ok well, me and sam just had one of our more verbally harsh fights. We were actually talking shit to each other. wow.
But here are the details.. So if ya dont care, skip the entry ;)
First off, most of our fights i start because i have this thing where i think the bad shit that seemed to happen in all my other relationships might come to this one to haunt me. My doubts, suspicions, worries, etc. Nobody wants to be lied to, cheated on, ignored, etc again after they felt it once. So after it happens so many times, you expect it.. And it still gets to me at moments, and hence.. starts fights with me and sam.
So me and sam fight, because she said something, and i thought she was hinting at telling me something. and backtracked *or so i thought*. No matter what anything is.. No exceptions i would rather hear anything that has to be told to me, etc, than it being a secret. I fucking HATE secrets.. *well the bad ones*.. And i would handle hearing anything as honesty, and right up front.. than.. time after it was happened. And as a secret.. or whatever.. if that maeks sense.. WHATEVER lol..
So we faught, assured me there werent any other details.. So eventually the fight ended.. And i explained myself fully.. And i swear on everything Sam has got to be the most understanding person.. Mind you, we were talking shit to each other in anger during this fight.. And she was being sweet as pie after me explaining..
This is where i give 'props' where they are due.
Sam has managed, and still manages to slowly chip away any character flaws i might have had or still have. lol.... Not in a bad way.. But killing all those things inside me that might make me think things might end on a bad note.. Or something bad migth happen in the process of us. She reassures, and just make things better. Her paitence for me and understand is of a saints, and much appriciated. I cand even explain how much i appriciate it all..
But.. I promise to be more trusting, and be more optimistic when im feeling down about something.. (and i promise to learn to fucking make an update without using a million periods. lol).
Most of you who read this will probably not care so much, but im doing this for her.. Im admitting i was wrong, and that i go over the top sometimes. This is my public apology, wanted or not. I was wrong.
And i love you sam. So much..
/end lovey ramblings.
But here are the details.. So if ya dont care, skip the entry ;)
First off, most of our fights i start because i have this thing where i think the bad shit that seemed to happen in all my other relationships might come to this one to haunt me. My doubts, suspicions, worries, etc. Nobody wants to be lied to, cheated on, ignored, etc again after they felt it once. So after it happens so many times, you expect it.. And it still gets to me at moments, and hence.. starts fights with me and sam.
So me and sam fight, because she said something, and i thought she was hinting at telling me something. and backtracked *or so i thought*. No matter what anything is.. No exceptions i would rather hear anything that has to be told to me, etc, than it being a secret. I fucking HATE secrets.. *well the bad ones*.. And i would handle hearing anything as honesty, and right up front.. than.. time after it was happened. And as a secret.. or whatever.. if that maeks sense.. WHATEVER lol..
So we faught, assured me there werent any other details.. So eventually the fight ended.. And i explained myself fully.. And i swear on everything Sam has got to be the most understanding person.. Mind you, we were talking shit to each other in anger during this fight.. And she was being sweet as pie after me explaining..
This is where i give 'props' where they are due.
Sam has managed, and still manages to slowly chip away any character flaws i might have had or still have. lol.... Not in a bad way.. But killing all those things inside me that might make me think things might end on a bad note.. Or something bad migth happen in the process of us. She reassures, and just make things better. Her paitence for me and understand is of a saints, and much appriciated. I cand even explain how much i appriciate it all..
But.. I promise to be more trusting, and be more optimistic when im feeling down about something.. (and i promise to learn to fucking make an update without using a million periods. lol).
Most of you who read this will probably not care so much, but im doing this for her.. Im admitting i was wrong, and that i go over the top sometimes. This is my public apology, wanted or not. I was wrong.
And i love you sam. So much..
/end lovey ramblings.