mtv made me cry.

[fromheavenifell]

I just had a rather strange experience. After doing laps and making myself lunch, I decided to sit down and watch the tube whilst eating (usually the only time i'm watching tv). I flipped to mtv to see what was playing. Why can't i be you?. Okay, I've been wanting to see an episode. Geeky boy wants to be like rich, popular jerk. WHO ASPIRES TO BECOME A DOUCHE, anyway?!?!?! Ummm. SO the point is, i started crying. The 'idol', who btw was just another superficial asshole, and his equally uppity girlfriend were being completely insensitive and cold. And why does the poor guy feel the need to be more like someone else, less like himself? What's wrong with being an individual? How much must someone hate themselves to submit themselves to that embarrasment? To prefer to conform? I'M SO SAD FOR HIM! I don't even know the kid. I'm upset for anyone who feels like that, which I'm sure we all do every once in awhile. I'm friggen heartbroken. And what makes the douche (AND his girlfriend AND his friends) think they're better than him, or anyone else for that matter? What a fucking waste of flesh and bones. We're all just living the one life we've got. Why can't this wannabe prep be happy with a meaningful life, knowing that he does not need to waste his time with people with such horrific personalities and frigid hearts? Why can't we all see that having a meaningful and fulfilling life is much more important than being attractive or popular (for all the wrong reasons)? And why can't we respect that in ourselves and others?

It just really hurt me to know that he doesn't love himself and that he's not proud of who he is.

When it comes down to it, we're all we've got. And how can we ever be happy if we don't love and accept ourselves first?

...sorry, this is all fairly uncharacteristic of me, but it needed to be said.