the_muses_stage 19. "Lucky 7"
7 times you wish you could turn back time and do things differently.
1. Deciding to not go to college so I could stay home to take care of Mom. I got accepted to the college of my dreams, Stanford, and their engineering program. I know I did the right thing, since I couldn’t really leave her since she’d just had a heart attack, but I still wish that I could have done it differently. That I had reapplied the following year when she was better, but…I was too scared that they would reject me, and I didn’t want that.
2. Asking Valentine to marry me. She’d said before that she liked things the way they were, and I should have just left them at that. I just don’t see what so wrong with wanting to get married and have a family. She always went on about how “you shouldn’t need a piece of paper to prove your love”, but it’s not about that. It’s just…a nice tradition. Obviously I’m never going to get to now, but…I still think it’s nice.
3. Leaving Ben behind. It wasn’t exactly by choice - he said he’d disown me if I didn’t go with, but I wish it could have been done different. I wish he could have come with, because as much as I love my life here and now…I could really use my best friend sometimes.
4. Lying to Mom about where I was going. I know I couldn’t tell her the truth even if I could go back and do it differently, but that doesn’t mean I don’t wish I could.
5. Not kissing him sooner, and soberer than I did. He liked me after all, so I might as well have, and not wasted so much time pining for him, thinking that I didn’t have a chance.
[locked] 6. Italy. It’s not even going with him that I would want to change, but just what happened, and how it happened, and everything that came after. Everything just kind of went to hell, and that…was bad. Very bad. And it’s my fault, I suppose, and I wish I could change that.
7. Telling him that he should stay here on the Enterprise. It’s his home, and where he belongs, and the right thing to do, but that doesn’t mean I don’t wish I could change it so he could be with me. [/locked]
A week isn't long at all.
1. Deciding to not go to college so I could stay home to take care of Mom. I got accepted to the college of my dreams, Stanford, and their engineering program. I know I did the right thing, since I couldn’t really leave her since she’d just had a heart attack, but I still wish that I could have done it differently. That I had reapplied the following year when she was better, but…I was too scared that they would reject me, and I didn’t want that.
2. Asking Valentine to marry me. She’d said before that she liked things the way they were, and I should have just left them at that. I just don’t see what so wrong with wanting to get married and have a family. She always went on about how “you shouldn’t need a piece of paper to prove your love”, but it’s not about that. It’s just…a nice tradition. Obviously I’m never going to get to now, but…I still think it’s nice.
3. Leaving Ben behind. It wasn’t exactly by choice - he said he’d disown me if I didn’t go with, but I wish it could have been done different. I wish he could have come with, because as much as I love my life here and now…I could really use my best friend sometimes.
4. Lying to Mom about where I was going. I know I couldn’t tell her the truth even if I could go back and do it differently, but that doesn’t mean I don’t wish I could.
5. Not kissing him sooner, and soberer than I did. He liked me after all, so I might as well have, and not wasted so much time pining for him, thinking that I didn’t have a chance.
[locked] 6. Italy. It’s not even going with him that I would want to change, but just what happened, and how it happened, and everything that came after. Everything just kind of went to hell, and that…was bad. Very bad. And it’s my fault, I suppose, and I wish I could change that.
7. Telling him that he should stay here on the Enterprise. It’s his home, and where he belongs, and the right thing to do, but that doesn’t mean I don’t wish I could change it so he could be with me. [/locked]
A week isn't long at all.