discoveries

[fromheaven]

it frightens me that one can be friends with someone, or have someone in their lives in some form as the case may be, and truly not know them. what are the aspects of people that tell you who they are? is it there past actions? their religious views? their political views? the nutty secrets that no one else knows? there are so many people i've been friends with since high school without questioning why. mario called me the other night... and what do you do when you realize that you've changed, but a number of your friends haven't? i hung out with someone the other night who i haven't seen in over six months and haven't been friends with for about a year. and that person hasn't seemed to grow at all. it felt like i had put my life on rewind for a few hours. what is it that makes us grow? what makes a year a year. i'm such a different person than i was last year (though i'm still hoping for the traditional family fight on or around christmas).

i'm really looking foreward to new year's.

oh and guys, c'mon, please hook me up with a free xbox 360!!! it's called a favor, that's what friends are for! it's not painful i promise.