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why feel sorrow for someone who doesn't care for your feelings
today my heart feels like it's breaking into a million pieces.
its the hardest thing to convince yourself that you dont miss them.
i'd do anything to go back a year and fix all the mistakes i made.
i let her down. no matter all the wrong she did, i should have made it right.
how will i ever find someone who knows me as well as she did.
do i even want to find someone else?
i know i shouldnt think back and try to move forward, but this is the one place i know she wont find out.
its been two months since our engagement was called off.
i even bought her a tiffany pearl bracelet so she'd never forget me
i left my job to be with her, i moved states to make her happy. i did everything she ever asked.
i poured my heart, soul, and bank account into her, and it still wasn't enough
people tell me she is selfish and that i will find another girl, that she wasnt right for me. that we fought too much.
you can love someone and still not be right for them - elvis presely
i know she still misses me. but the fact that she immediately went back to her ex should have told me something.
i was fine until she texted me telling me that she wishes she was with me and thinks she made a mistake.
how can i even let her back into my life after all the harm she caused. she made me settle down.
everyday for two years she made me prove my love, telling me time and time again i didnt love her.
how could you tell someone that everyday, it's such a horrible thing to say. all i did was love her.
people say that if they accuse you of cheating all the time, it's because they were cheating.
looking back it all makes sense, i dont even want to think she did, but it's too hard to deny now.
why do all the girls i date cheat on me? i know im not bad in bed. maybe i need to find a girl that isnt about just looks.
i'm a cancer. all i want is trust, loyalty, and someone that is proud to be with me.
in return, i promise ill make the world revolve around you.
i havent done a photoshoot in months because my heart cant be creative.
i need a beautiful face around me again, even just a friend. someone who could share my passion of photography again.
one day i'll get it right. one day a girl will love me unconditionally
my names robear, im recovering from an oxy addiction and a broken heart. its been 3 months since ive had both.