completley lost in nothing at all...
I’m sitting here listening to mogwai and trying to write a paper. I was on my bed drawing when I realized that I had to get it done for tomorrow. My mind just isn’t there though. I can’t do it. It isn’t a long paper or anything it’s just that my mind is elsewhere...because I’m sitting here and I’m contemplating, I’m contemplating on so many things that as of right now feel like they are there but they are not. I’m am completely lost in the idea of nothing. Content. I have this feeling that I’m just feeling so much for something when I’m not. It isn’t there. It won’t be there and it was never there to begin with. Do you ever wonder what is better? being completely in love with someone/something or to simply love someone/something so much that you just want to be there at that time with that someone and not feel anything like butterflies but just something different. Something that can take you away from your everyday routine. The feeling of being completely content. Just a warm hug or to just sit there with somebody and be comfortable and say nothing at all and it isn’t about you it’s about what you are doing...which is nothing.
Do you know how amazing that is just sitting there and feeling completely comfortable with everything, your company, your surroundings, what you see. That’s amazing. sometimes nothing can be the best feeling in the world sometimes nothing can be more amazing then feelings from the heart because with nothing you have no insecurities. You have no doubt. You just have this " "<---nothing and being able to share that with someone and feel content and happy is maybe more amazing then any other feeling at all. An experience like that is something that could just be someone needs sometimes. Just knowing that that you are with wants to be doing that too, that they feel content just being there.
Sometimes I wonder if maybe friendship or…. I can’t even put a word on it but acceptance by another human being is more meaningful then anything else. Just a complete understand of what the other person is thinking or feeling at the time with hardly to no communication at all...but it isn’t love its more then love. There’s more to it sometimes then that. Just because you love being around someone or you enjoy a persons company doesn’t mean love all the time. It can just mean loving that person not being in love with them. Sure, it can turn into more then that. Sometimes you just want to be around a person. You want to hear them tell stories; you want to hear them talk about things that you don’t normally talk about. A relationship that is deeper then just the surface of ‘I like this’ and ‘I like that’. Sometimes I just want to sit and learn and explore another persons mind. Just talk about things that have no need for an argument like politics or religion. Something that inspires me something that makes me want to live out my dream. I want to hear what they want to do with their life, what is like to be them, how do they draw inspiration and then from that gain inspiration. Enough of the negative bullshit. Just for one second leave what’s going on in the world behind and focus completely on what is going on in that moment. Just stop everything and soak up what another person has to say, because maybe they need that you know. Maybe while everyone else is worrying about what else is going on in the world that person in front of you just needs that one second. Just needs that one person to listen and really take something from what they have to say. That may seem selfish like I don’t care about anything else going on in the world but I'm not going to sit here and defend myself. Do you know how amazing it is when someone wants to sit there and tell you their dreams? sometimes I wonder that if people would just slow down sometimes and really pay attention to their surroundings this world and the way people think would be a completely different place a completely different thing.
i just had junk on my mind had had to jott down quick notes...back to work
tee
Do you know how amazing that is just sitting there and feeling completely comfortable with everything, your company, your surroundings, what you see. That’s amazing. sometimes nothing can be the best feeling in the world sometimes nothing can be more amazing then feelings from the heart because with nothing you have no insecurities. You have no doubt. You just have this " "<---nothing and being able to share that with someone and feel content and happy is maybe more amazing then any other feeling at all. An experience like that is something that could just be someone needs sometimes. Just knowing that that you are with wants to be doing that too, that they feel content just being there.
Sometimes I wonder if maybe friendship or…. I can’t even put a word on it but acceptance by another human being is more meaningful then anything else. Just a complete understand of what the other person is thinking or feeling at the time with hardly to no communication at all...but it isn’t love its more then love. There’s more to it sometimes then that. Just because you love being around someone or you enjoy a persons company doesn’t mean love all the time. It can just mean loving that person not being in love with them. Sure, it can turn into more then that. Sometimes you just want to be around a person. You want to hear them tell stories; you want to hear them talk about things that you don’t normally talk about. A relationship that is deeper then just the surface of ‘I like this’ and ‘I like that’. Sometimes I just want to sit and learn and explore another persons mind. Just talk about things that have no need for an argument like politics or religion. Something that inspires me something that makes me want to live out my dream. I want to hear what they want to do with their life, what is like to be them, how do they draw inspiration and then from that gain inspiration. Enough of the negative bullshit. Just for one second leave what’s going on in the world behind and focus completely on what is going on in that moment. Just stop everything and soak up what another person has to say, because maybe they need that you know. Maybe while everyone else is worrying about what else is going on in the world that person in front of you just needs that one second. Just needs that one person to listen and really take something from what they have to say. That may seem selfish like I don’t care about anything else going on in the world but I'm not going to sit here and defend myself. Do you know how amazing it is when someone wants to sit there and tell you their dreams? sometimes I wonder that if people would just slow down sometimes and really pay attention to their surroundings this world and the way people think would be a completely different place a completely different thing.
i just had junk on my mind had had to jott down quick notes...back to work
tee