Day 452, 34 left
There are lots of incredible moments each day. Perfectionism tries t make me not to enjoy, desire to control manifests itself again and again. Probably what is needed is gratitude.
Today was about 30-40 minutes of meditation, prana viaama, very very very good Sivananda-yoga, and, later during the day - qi-gong.
There is a funny question in my mind - to think or not to think. Anyway, there is a lot of confusion, but it goes away as soon as i start to do massage or to dance.
I would like something more that i have. I want to have more deep conversations with some particular people, and more concrete practices together. Almost ready to propose something, but not yet. Need to be patient.
Also i need much more hours in a day, to have time to do everything which is wanted. Now my body is tired, we walked a lot.
To control or not to control? To try to design my life or not? How to combine experimenting with a human design strategy and desire to create?
There are moments of confusion. Just keep going, easy to say. There are sooooo many things where can i focus the attention. Different things. Sooo many things to take care of! For example, just a human body - it has so many different parts, and they all are connected with the different feelings, and in massage i have to take care of each part, and even in three hours it is not possible to do everything which i would like to do.
My life becomes more and more like a puzzle made of different practices. Just because i need it. Otherways the mind goes crazy, i am afraid of it.
Just need to work more.
Today was about 30-40 minutes of meditation, prana viaama, very very very good Sivananda-yoga, and, later during the day - qi-gong.
There is a funny question in my mind - to think or not to think. Anyway, there is a lot of confusion, but it goes away as soon as i start to do massage or to dance.
I would like something more that i have. I want to have more deep conversations with some particular people, and more concrete practices together. Almost ready to propose something, but not yet. Need to be patient.
Also i need much more hours in a day, to have time to do everything which is wanted. Now my body is tired, we walked a lot.
To control or not to control? To try to design my life or not? How to combine experimenting with a human design strategy and desire to create?
There are moments of confusion. Just keep going, easy to say. There are sooooo many things where can i focus the attention. Different things. Sooo many things to take care of! For example, just a human body - it has so many different parts, and they all are connected with the different feelings, and in massage i have to take care of each part, and even in three hours it is not possible to do everything which i would like to do.
My life becomes more and more like a puzzle made of different practices. Just because i need it. Otherways the mind goes crazy, i am afraid of it.
Just need to work more.