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As you can see, this space is pretty much stagnant - except for random rantings here and there.
Been thinking of closing it since I've been so god damned lazy to update ( and no one reads anyway) , but then again....i think i need this space.
Y has been asking me to go on a trip together with him. Taiwan, but again? It'd be the third time i've been there, and within a half year time span. But then again I cannot contain my love for taiwan. And y's probably not the best company. Seriously, one guy and a girl who wants to go on a shopping spree? He'd probably become my personal shopping bag carrier ;)
Awkward situation. Last night I finally met someone I haven't seen in approximately 4 years. We met twice : when we worked together once, and when i took money from him. It's really mad weird if you think about it, we've kept in contact all these years, sending each other texts every now and then. We took as long as a week to reply each other's texts before yet, 4 years! And after pushing back a meeting for at least the past 2 years , we finally met up for a meal.
I'm really awkward around strangers or anyone that I'm unfamiliar with, and i'm sorry he had to go through with me and my awkward laughs and weird reactions and silence.
And i thought i've improved on my shyness. Utter crap
Ah god. there's so many things i want to say. So many thoughts... Oh and i just got played. I am probably the worst judge of character ever. Think I need a little time to get over it. Kinda feel like how i felt 4 months back...sudden urge to smash my head against the wall for being so so so dumb to believe in anything. I knew how you worked from the start, just never wanted to take any chances in case I was wrong about you (like how i was wrong about others) this time but ah well. Probably not the wisest choice. I am a huge mix of confusion, hurt, anger, amusment, embarrassment and many others.
Seems like a reversed situation that happened sometime back, nearly the same, in fact. Karma much? I'm sorry, kinda know how you feel now and why your girlfriend has been giving me snide looks which is completely uncalled for.
I don't like what i've been learning about others. I won't elaborate. I'll just keep it inside and feel uncomfortable about it all the time.
The terror of knowing too much.
Yea yea who can i blame but myself. I wish i could go back to being 13 all over again....i'd change everything about myself.
Wish i grew up a little smarter
Trusted a little more
Learn to be a prettier person inside out
Wish i cared a little more about the feelings of the people around me back then
A little more forgiving
I miss having a little more time with you and you and you
and now i don't really know what else to say