babble again

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yesterday was our "print a palooza" and i hope things went well. a lot of people came, prolly just wantin' the prizes. i would. dave dillon of kroger stopped by, he was just walking around with his coffee in hand. so i said hi to him and asked his name, like a dumb ass. he's like, "hi, im dave dillon" lol and im like "hi, im jennifer wilson" ...and asked him if he has any questions ..he said no, and that he was just wondering around and thought it was great we were doing this. ...at that point i got called away to explain the webcrd again. I forgot my cell in the car, so i had no contact with chris or jennifer all day. and when i did call chris finally at 2, he was busy up to his neck anyway, and couldnt talk. i got off early cause of all my overtime, and i had to go get my meds anyway. and chris still wasnt available. and when i did talk to him, all he talked about was his work or shit he was doin' or wahtever... didnt ask about my open house or how things went until i brought it up, of course. so easy to say 'i was going to' after the fact. but even when i was trying to talk to him about it, he was getting distracted and other things were more interesting -- so i didnt get to share.even when i was forcing it. know how they say you gotta catch your children right when they get home from school or an event to get what happened, if you wait, it's over and they wont tell you cause they dont feel like it. yeah, same with me. if i dont get it out right after it happened, forget tryin' to get it out of me later... he should have known how big of an event this was for me - us - ikon - kroger - today, he should have been on it when talking to me cause he should have known it was going to be on my mind. he'll care after the fact.. after you remind him. so last night i told him i was sick of hearing things or talking to him -and it only being about him. he's so into himself right now. even just as a friend i find that hard to deal with sometimes. am i making any sense? wouldnt be surprised if this is all gibberish with the way ive been feeling. and i think i found a good way to explain it... i feel like im stoned. not high. but stoned. i can only concentrate on one thing at a time, and even that's hard cause im distracted by the things to the edge of my eye - and i get dizzy if i take notice to them. i forget what things are.. easy things. chris was making fun of me saying i forget my name.. but it's not my name id forget it's 'whats a name?'.

i think i had a dream last night of a voice telling me ' you dont have to work downtown any more '

im not sure what that was all about. but im hopin' it was positive.