VENTiNG

[frolicplay]

 so i found a place that i love
that i fell in love with the first time i saw the stupid fucking building
then i see the one bedroom and want it
so i go for it 
and get approved
too quickly to tell my parents
knowing its a bit quick 
not wanting to tell them
so i do today

they hate it
they more than hate it
theyre worried 
they think it's in a horrible part of town.
and something horrible will happen to me
mother was in tears
begging
i hate it

fuckinG STUPID

so now.
UGH

they hate it so much they offered me 200 bucks a month if i find a better place
while we were driving around we saw a place and i promised dad id call
so i did tonight
and it's 125 dollars more than the other place
but double the size
who fucking knows
im going to go see it tomorrow
am not happy about any of this
doesnt matter that i love the stupid little queer apt near a main road...
that i have soo many plans for it 
whatever
leave it to me to feel bad enough to consider other options!
and i hate that to make them happy ill need their money
FUCKinG A
cant i just do wat i want to do!???
without having a guilty conscience ridig my back the WHOLE time

ugh
i quit
lol just
good night