[[this is what i wrote last night]]..then i got distracted

[frolicplay]

 i almost feel

went out to a quorum night last night

and im glad i did.
i talked to joe about it, and he suggested i go out and have a good time.and almost be selfish about it...
that's exactly what i did. and felt comfortable doing it. 
mike got me in for free --but i did not see him most the night :(
ilan stayed surprisingly sober.

i wish i knew what he thought.  
maybe he stayed sober to behave himself. 
chris went up to him right when we got there and said hello .lol
i think he's scared of her. hahahaha

but he introduced me to sebastian r komor - nice guy. good feel to him, i suppose. or maybe he was just fucked up lol nice artist though, 
but of course, nature is his other half for live shows.

i had a dream about him last night
a few diff times.
about nature that is..
the main one i remember is that he was sitting acoss from me - kind of distant 
very calm like
very gray blue
i remember him sitting indian style
and the bottom half of him being covered in gray

i remember communicating with him. 
silently
lol

To dream that you are sitting, indicates your indecision and not knowing what you want to do with yourself in the near future. It may also suggest that you are idle and doing nothing
Gray indicates fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. You may feel emotionally distant or detached

so im feeling scared confused and distant -- which so i sit here and do nothing or dont know what to do .lol what the fuck ever.