feelings should be felt thruout the body
to explain myself - ive read this book somewhere telling feelings should be felt thruout the body, not suppressed by the mind. that there's no such thing as bad feelings...hence the reason people prolly misplace anger, or bottle it up.
so i have these feelings when i think chris is 'with me' or thinking of me. i just know when he is..and the past few days well, saturday night and sunday ive been having these feelings i relate straight to chris. and tonight, sure enough, he fucking texts me something totally random.like wtf. i dont really see how that could be totally random.but anyway..
im having these feelings . i dont like im thinking of chris.but i figured i might be horny as well, knowing he thinks of me when he rubs one out (i picked up my things from his place last wk, one of my nighties went surprisingly missing AND he was using my lube :| ..so i rub one out (yay) and my head is feeling more than a little bit intense and i start to shake it back and forth, prolly pretty violently..but it felt right, so i kept doing it and i just start crying.not even like a cry..it was more like an tighting up of the entire head so ill cry thing...i tried my best to just go with it.which, my ear really hurts now, btw.. but i suddenly came to a new realization afterwards.and once i did, everything stopped.i have no headache right now..
before i told myself that chris has my heart..he does, there's no getting around that.but a friend suggested maybe my heart will be able to grow to love someone else in time.and i like that idea, so im running with it.
never before, had i thought i had a piece of him. that he had given a piece of his heart to me.and i dont know exactly why, but it just makes sense.makes that much more sense.
i am trying my best to get over this guy.i am in more ways than one regrouping myself slowly back together. maybe this is just another step. im assuming so. i hope this will help me get back to me even more.
or , maybe it could just be an overload of allergy medicine in my head.
so i have these feelings when i think chris is 'with me' or thinking of me. i just know when he is..and the past few days well, saturday night and sunday ive been having these feelings i relate straight to chris. and tonight, sure enough, he fucking texts me something totally random.like wtf. i dont really see how that could be totally random.but anyway..
im having these feelings . i dont like im thinking of chris.but i figured i might be horny as well, knowing he thinks of me when he rubs one out (i picked up my things from his place last wk, one of my nighties went surprisingly missing AND he was using my lube :| ..so i rub one out (yay) and my head is feeling more than a little bit intense and i start to shake it back and forth, prolly pretty violently..but it felt right, so i kept doing it and i just start crying.not even like a cry..it was more like an tighting up of the entire head so ill cry thing...i tried my best to just go with it.which, my ear really hurts now, btw.. but i suddenly came to a new realization afterwards.and once i did, everything stopped.i have no headache right now..
before i told myself that chris has my heart..he does, there's no getting around that.but a friend suggested maybe my heart will be able to grow to love someone else in time.and i like that idea, so im running with it.
never before, had i thought i had a piece of him. that he had given a piece of his heart to me.and i dont know exactly why, but it just makes sense.makes that much more sense.
i am trying my best to get over this guy.i am in more ways than one regrouping myself slowly back together. maybe this is just another step. im assuming so. i hope this will help me get back to me even more.
or , maybe it could just be an overload of allergy medicine in my head.