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had a few dreams last night
one, my mp3 player started working again, out of the blue too..almost as if it found its own way to the puter to plug itself in and liven itself again
two, i saw my copy center, but it wasnt -- it was ass backwards.things were done totally differently but it was okay...i wasnt in it, i was looking down into it. it was like looking into the twilight zone-even the colors were funky.i dontknow. was weird
..am talking to my good friend mark - and it reminded me that my aunt's been sick
and she's not doing well at all. she's one of the two aunts that doesnt live in cincinnati or close - she's in new york and has her own family of generations. she has cancer, and apparently it's eating her insides pretty badly...if youwill. no one's supposed to tell grandma. oh god. what if grandma see's aunt jane pass? poor grandm!! it's crazy to think about... aunt jane leaving? doesnt make much sense. i know, im talking way out of term i suppose..but ive heard she's doing so badly it's hard to think otherwise? when you have cancer ..not sure where it started.but i know for sure it's in her colon, stomach, and utrus. she's totally bald, but wears wigs..they look good, would never know it.heh
if it is true.. if aunt jane is 'close' and if she really is 'not doing well at all' -- it will be a surprise and one that came upon quickly. will see my whole family mourn in a different way than what i saw with grandpa. i feel like i should be thinking about these things now. i should be keeping her in my thoughts more and i dont. im going to start. positive thoughts, of course.waiting for feedback from her if i get any.
one, my mp3 player started working again, out of the blue too..almost as if it found its own way to the puter to plug itself in and liven itself again
two, i saw my copy center, but it wasnt -- it was ass backwards.things were done totally differently but it was okay...i wasnt in it, i was looking down into it. it was like looking into the twilight zone-even the colors were funky.i dontknow. was weird
..am talking to my good friend mark - and it reminded me that my aunt's been sick
and she's not doing well at all. she's one of the two aunts that doesnt live in cincinnati or close - she's in new york and has her own family of generations. she has cancer, and apparently it's eating her insides pretty badly...if youwill. no one's supposed to tell grandma. oh god. what if grandma see's aunt jane pass? poor grandm!! it's crazy to think about... aunt jane leaving? doesnt make much sense. i know, im talking way out of term i suppose..but ive heard she's doing so badly it's hard to think otherwise? when you have cancer ..not sure where it started.but i know for sure it's in her colon, stomach, and utrus. she's totally bald, but wears wigs..they look good, would never know it.heh
if it is true.. if aunt jane is 'close' and if she really is 'not doing well at all' -- it will be a surprise and one that came upon quickly. will see my whole family mourn in a different way than what i saw with grandpa. i feel like i should be thinking about these things now. i should be keeping her in my thoughts more and i dont. im going to start. positive thoughts, of course.waiting for feedback from her if i get any.