I'll break my own heart instead
Hey f-list, how many times would you email someone without receiving a response before you gave up and accepted that they don't want to know you anymore?
See, I always thought that the reason I've never had a lot of friends is that people simply don't like me. That's not true, though. Plenty of people like me just fine as long as I put my life on hold, ignore all other responsibilities and do all that I possibly can to be there for them. As soon as I try to do right by myself, to honour the other commitments I have in my life, I might as well cease to exist. If I don't have time to sit in front of my computer at a time that is convenient for them because I have a job to go to and shopping to do and a house to clean then I might as well not exist for them anymore.
And that is not fucking fair.
See, I always thought that the reason I've never had a lot of friends is that people simply don't like me. That's not true, though. Plenty of people like me just fine as long as I put my life on hold, ignore all other responsibilities and do all that I possibly can to be there for them. As soon as I try to do right by myself, to honour the other commitments I have in my life, I might as well cease to exist. If I don't have time to sit in front of my computer at a time that is convenient for them because I have a job to go to and shopping to do and a house to clean then I might as well not exist for them anymore.
And that is not fucking fair.