this really sucks!?!
i need to get stoned or drunk again to put some of the stress i am having out of my mind. i am ready to just say fuck it all and leave this world but i know there are ppl that would miss the shit out of me. another part is telling me just to up and leave but i have no place to go i might move in with a friend of mine but then i have to put up with someone else. i am ready to kill my ex he is driving me to kill him or myself. eather way it works for me. i also fucked up with this guy i want but can not date and that sucks for me. i have liked him for like a couple years now and now i could of had him but i fucked up by telling a couple of other ppl to come up here to fuck me and i was just looking for someone else that wanted me and that would make me feel special even if it didn't last long.