Last night
So last night was a big event in my life...it may not seem a lot to you but it was to me. I sometimes have trouble at night because of my past. And last night my boyfriend and I were laying there. He was being kind of grumpy. I was sad. I had been kind of sad all weekend because I felt like I made him do things that he didn't want to do....well it goes back to me and how I'm so hard on myself. That sometimes I think I don't deserve to be happy because with my happiness comes with a horrible price...but then I met David and he changed everything. I love him more than anything. And I'm always afraid that he will leave me because I'm emotionally crazy right now. But he tells me everyday he won't because I make him just as happy as he makes me. Last night was a big eye opener for this. I got upset. I told him that I felt like I had been so horrible this weekend because I made him do things that he didn't want to do and I was being all selfish. He looked at me and said in the most serious voice I've ever heard him use, "Kim you are least selfish person I have ever met. Yeah sometimes I don't understand why you are getting upset, but you make me more happy than I have ever been in my life." He took off his shirt and gave it to me so I could wipe my tears away. He held me tight and told me he loved me over and over again till I calmed down. He was there for me. I love him....I know I do...and I told him I am working so hard on getting the past away...and he understands...I love you David with all my heart! :)