My letter to the universe
Dear Universe,
I am ready to begin a new chapter in my life. A chapter of growth. A chapter of change. A chapter of possibilities. Most of all, I want to grow and improve upon all the blessings in my life, and I need help with motivation and determination to refresh the pages of now.
First, I want to push myself and be pushed further and harder than ever before in my career. I want new challenges, new hurdles, new obstacles that encourage me to try, to attempt, to succeed, and to fail. I want so much more than where I am, and I want to continue on my journey as an artist, not plateau or join a holding pattern. I do not want opportunities and life to pass me by; instead, I want to seize each new day and opportunity as a chance to grow and evolve as a person and a performer.
I want an agent. I want someone not only fighting for me, but pushing me beyond my comfort zone boundaries and helping me to grow and mature and succeed in this field.
I want to work and make money, but not settle in projects that put me on "pause" or detract from my greater goals. I believe this might entail work strictly outside of performing, and I need help and inspiration and guidance in finding ways to eat and pay rent in this troubled economy, while allowing myself to take new risks as a performer that will help me return to that goal of being paid well for performing phenomenally.
I believe I have achieved one goal in acquiring my union status, but I don't want to rest on that as a benchmark. I want to leap and bounce and jump from that as a new starting point, like my college degree. I want to fly higher and higher in this business, creatively, artistically, professionally, with the people I work with.
I want to feel inspired to create and arrange and play. I want to learn a new language. I want to work and practice to play the guitar and keep adding more skills to my resume. I want to be a SPONGE. I never want to stop learning.
I want to expand the horizons of Christopher.
I want to surround myself with inspiring and challenging people. I want shepherds and molders and crafters to be a part of my journey, each of them leading me along the way.
I want success. Not fame and money, though if they are a part of my travels, I will embrace them humbly and with grace. I want to continue to be proud of the work I do.
I want CONFIDENCE. I want to walk into a room and be a salesman of MYSELF. I want to have a perfect product for them, and I want to be able to honestly package that and show it off.
I want friends who inspire me. Who challenge me. Who are growing and changing. I want my family to be a part of that.
I need to procrastinate and avoid hard work less. Not in the studio, but at home.
I want the beginnings of what can eventually be someone to share my life with. I want to meet interesting, intelligent, successful, and maybe financially stable?, men who are interested in Christopher and his growth and being a part of that. I want to find someone who can share me and with whom I can share him, but I'd like to discover that through real dating and real relationships. Heck, I want to get laid, but I'd rather get to know someone than have a random one night. I want my male-male contact to have some meaning and be something that starts enhancing my life, rather than being a periphery.
I want to be in a Broadway show. Somehow, some way, I want to be a part of the experience of working on the Great White Way. There, I said it. And I'm owning it with charisma and confidence. Because from today forward I BELIEVE that it's not a matter of IF, but WHEN.
I am making changes starting yesterday with following myself up in my career, even if it seems on paper like I'm turning away from great opportunities. I need to grow and I hope I can support myself with that. But if, for a short time, I need to support myself in other ways, I am ready to make that commitment. What I need is help remaining confident and not turning to despair or shirking my responsibilities. I need help foraying into the world of business so different from where I've made my living for so long. And I want these experiences to enhance me as a person and an actor.
I want to dance. And I want sing. And I want to be a great actor. And I want people to teach me these things and remind me of my collegiate inspiration.
I want to see the world. And experience different cultures. I want outside the confines of the United States and our singular culture, so that I may grow in understanding and acceptance and love.
But most of all, in everything I want, I wish to grow in love and happiness. To give and receive true affection of the heart, to follow my heart's desire to happiness, and to live in pride and confidence of the man I can become.
This is only the beginning of great things for us, dear Universe, and I am putting them down here as a building block towards their realization. Please understand the "I want"'s are not intended as selfish declarations, but for lack of a better term, my way of defining the road ahead.
Thank you for being a part of my new inspiration.
Christopher
I am ready to begin a new chapter in my life. A chapter of growth. A chapter of change. A chapter of possibilities. Most of all, I want to grow and improve upon all the blessings in my life, and I need help with motivation and determination to refresh the pages of now.
First, I want to push myself and be pushed further and harder than ever before in my career. I want new challenges, new hurdles, new obstacles that encourage me to try, to attempt, to succeed, and to fail. I want so much more than where I am, and I want to continue on my journey as an artist, not plateau or join a holding pattern. I do not want opportunities and life to pass me by; instead, I want to seize each new day and opportunity as a chance to grow and evolve as a person and a performer.
I want an agent. I want someone not only fighting for me, but pushing me beyond my comfort zone boundaries and helping me to grow and mature and succeed in this field.
I want to work and make money, but not settle in projects that put me on "pause" or detract from my greater goals. I believe this might entail work strictly outside of performing, and I need help and inspiration and guidance in finding ways to eat and pay rent in this troubled economy, while allowing myself to take new risks as a performer that will help me return to that goal of being paid well for performing phenomenally.
I believe I have achieved one goal in acquiring my union status, but I don't want to rest on that as a benchmark. I want to leap and bounce and jump from that as a new starting point, like my college degree. I want to fly higher and higher in this business, creatively, artistically, professionally, with the people I work with.
I want to feel inspired to create and arrange and play. I want to learn a new language. I want to work and practice to play the guitar and keep adding more skills to my resume. I want to be a SPONGE. I never want to stop learning.
I want to expand the horizons of Christopher.
I want to surround myself with inspiring and challenging people. I want shepherds and molders and crafters to be a part of my journey, each of them leading me along the way.
I want success. Not fame and money, though if they are a part of my travels, I will embrace them humbly and with grace. I want to continue to be proud of the work I do.
I want CONFIDENCE. I want to walk into a room and be a salesman of MYSELF. I want to have a perfect product for them, and I want to be able to honestly package that and show it off.
I want friends who inspire me. Who challenge me. Who are growing and changing. I want my family to be a part of that.
I need to procrastinate and avoid hard work less. Not in the studio, but at home.
I want the beginnings of what can eventually be someone to share my life with. I want to meet interesting, intelligent, successful, and maybe financially stable?, men who are interested in Christopher and his growth and being a part of that. I want to find someone who can share me and with whom I can share him, but I'd like to discover that through real dating and real relationships. Heck, I want to get laid, but I'd rather get to know someone than have a random one night. I want my male-male contact to have some meaning and be something that starts enhancing my life, rather than being a periphery.
I want to be in a Broadway show. Somehow, some way, I want to be a part of the experience of working on the Great White Way. There, I said it. And I'm owning it with charisma and confidence. Because from today forward I BELIEVE that it's not a matter of IF, but WHEN.
I am making changes starting yesterday with following myself up in my career, even if it seems on paper like I'm turning away from great opportunities. I need to grow and I hope I can support myself with that. But if, for a short time, I need to support myself in other ways, I am ready to make that commitment. What I need is help remaining confident and not turning to despair or shirking my responsibilities. I need help foraying into the world of business so different from where I've made my living for so long. And I want these experiences to enhance me as a person and an actor.
I want to dance. And I want sing. And I want to be a great actor. And I want people to teach me these things and remind me of my collegiate inspiration.
I want to see the world. And experience different cultures. I want outside the confines of the United States and our singular culture, so that I may grow in understanding and acceptance and love.
But most of all, in everything I want, I wish to grow in love and happiness. To give and receive true affection of the heart, to follow my heart's desire to happiness, and to live in pride and confidence of the man I can become.
This is only the beginning of great things for us, dear Universe, and I am putting them down here as a building block towards their realization. Please understand the "I want"'s are not intended as selfish declarations, but for lack of a better term, my way of defining the road ahead.
Thank you for being a part of my new inspiration.
Christopher