R. I. P.
Dear Dad,
I love you and miss you so much. I can't help thinking how different things would be if you were still here. I have felt so lost not being able to go to you for advice and my heart aches when I realize how many amazing moments Alex has been deprived of and how little he actually remembers abpout you. We tell him stories and share our memories but it's not the same. Mike is picking out a ring right now and he's planning on proposing to Tori on their anniversary in November. I know you adored him and would be so happy for them but I just know that the wedding day will be bittersweet without you to walk her down the aisle. You also never got to meet Chad (Ginny actually managed to find a decent guy too). Alex is in first grade now and he's an amazing reader, you would be so proud! Don't worry I'm making sure he loves the classics too. We've already read Moby Dick, Treasure Island, 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea, Peter Pan, and so many more... They are only the abridged versions for now but I figures if he develops a love for them now he can read the originals by himself when he gets older. Oh, and yesterday Mom, Alex, Jim B. and Uncle Dan went to a WWII re-enactment, you would have loved it. They decided to do that instead of Civil War Days this year. One area I have been slacking is inthe movie/TV department. I know I should be raising him on John Wayne, Andy Griffith and All in the Family but I just can't do it. Even now it hurts too much and brings back too many memories of you. I think I've only watched one John Wayne movie since you've died, isn't that sad... And I have to leave the room whenever All in the Family is on in the break room at work before I burst into tears. That one's the worst because I not only get reminded of you but Papa as well :) And God, but do I miss him too. Grandma's in a nursing home now, she just got moved in last week. Losing you and Papa and Shaun all on less than 9 months really took it's toll on her and her dementia has continued to get worse. And then there's me... I have no idea what you would say about my dropping out of school, although if you hadn't died I really don't think i would have. I know you would have been disappointed in me but I at least know you wouldn't guilt trip me like mom does. I feel bad for Alex, growing up with just mom... I mean I love her, I do, but she's not you. Especially without you here as a buffer we just clash I we pretty much just avoid each other as best we can.
Miss you and love you always and forever,
Daddy's Little Girl
I love you and miss you so much. I can't help thinking how different things would be if you were still here. I have felt so lost not being able to go to you for advice and my heart aches when I realize how many amazing moments Alex has been deprived of and how little he actually remembers abpout you. We tell him stories and share our memories but it's not the same. Mike is picking out a ring right now and he's planning on proposing to Tori on their anniversary in November. I know you adored him and would be so happy for them but I just know that the wedding day will be bittersweet without you to walk her down the aisle. You also never got to meet Chad (Ginny actually managed to find a decent guy too). Alex is in first grade now and he's an amazing reader, you would be so proud! Don't worry I'm making sure he loves the classics too. We've already read Moby Dick, Treasure Island, 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea, Peter Pan, and so many more... They are only the abridged versions for now but I figures if he develops a love for them now he can read the originals by himself when he gets older. Oh, and yesterday Mom, Alex, Jim B. and Uncle Dan went to a WWII re-enactment, you would have loved it. They decided to do that instead of Civil War Days this year. One area I have been slacking is inthe movie/TV department. I know I should be raising him on John Wayne, Andy Griffith and All in the Family but I just can't do it. Even now it hurts too much and brings back too many memories of you. I think I've only watched one John Wayne movie since you've died, isn't that sad... And I have to leave the room whenever All in the Family is on in the break room at work before I burst into tears. That one's the worst because I not only get reminded of you but Papa as well :) And God, but do I miss him too. Grandma's in a nursing home now, she just got moved in last week. Losing you and Papa and Shaun all on less than 9 months really took it's toll on her and her dementia has continued to get worse. And then there's me... I have no idea what you would say about my dropping out of school, although if you hadn't died I really don't think i would have. I know you would have been disappointed in me but I at least know you wouldn't guilt trip me like mom does. I feel bad for Alex, growing up with just mom... I mean I love her, I do, but she's not you. Especially without you here as a buffer we just clash I we pretty much just avoid each other as best we can.
Miss you and love you always and forever,
Daddy's Little Girl