I miss you Aunt Sandy. ='/

[froggsz]

Lately, things have been weird. I've been having really bad dreams, waking up 3-4 times a night and I'm scared!? I dont know whats going on. Like, damn, two nights ago I had this really really bad dream about my Aunt Sandy. Lemme desribe her first: She was gay, a hippie, and absolutly loved me to death! She'd do anything for me. And for the short time she was alive she WAS my mom cause my real one didnt want me. But yeah. She ended up getting hit by a train. Her and her gf while they were on thier way to start a new life in Colorado. People say she prolly had the radio up too loud, thats why she didnt see/hear the train. I dunno. But anywho. We were close! mm. I had a dream she came back. And we had some kind of family get-together. And there she was. Everyone was around her, hugging, kissing, and so on. And I just stood in the background and cried. I couldnt stop. She pushed through everyone and came to me. All she said was "I'm here now" and hugged me. God, just thinking about it makes me wanna cry. =/ But yeah. I woke up and my pillow was wet from where I was ACTUALLY crying. ='/ Bah, I remember at her funeral I had SO many women come and say "Chasity? I've heard so much about you!" "Sandy really loved you." and just things like that. The day she died I was in school, doing some homework, and started shaking really really bad. The teacher asked what was wrong, but I didnt know. About 45 mins later I got outta school, came home, and an ambulance was at my house. My gma could barely take the news. She was flipping out. So I got sent to my neighbors house til someone could think of HOW to tell me. ='/

shitty. I need to quit thinking about this and go to school. peace.