I wish
I wish I could have one of those interesting eventful lives. I want one where something new and exciting and scary happens every day. At the same time I don’t. I can’t imagine coming into a room to find someone I know dead, hell even someone I don’t know. I guess I want the dream you know a great love that lasts forever. No heartbreaks, no deaths, no fights, but you know that’s not possible you can’t have the highs without the lows especially in movies and books. That’s both good and bad because without the bad you can never fully appreciate the good, but too much bad and you get to a point where you can’t recognize the good. I guess everything is about balance. That’s why I feel unbalanced I don’t have either. In my life there is not a bunch of bad at the same time there is not that much good either. I feel like I need something anything to get out of my currant rut. Whether it’s going to be bad or good I hope it comes soon because I hate this empty feeling I can’t get rid of.