Welcome back
well all i can say for being back is that im back to being stressed and having mid-life crisis.
though the recent one has kind of struck a cord with me.
what if i have already fucked up my life? not just now but way back in high school. i look at people i know now and all i see is how exceptional they are and how they going to get any job they want. (i.e. getting internships, jobs, working on research projects.) while here i am, struggling to find a part-time job for the semester.
maybe if i had done more things other than band, i wouldnt be in this position. maybe if i was smarter.
it just seems like the world here is out to get me. that im no longer good enough for a job that i had 2 years ago. i feel like ive grown as a person and understanding the world, but i also feel like america knows that i love europe and to punish me its doing everything it can to crush my soul.
i almost wish i had skipped going to college and just left for europe 6 years ago.
though the recent one has kind of struck a cord with me.
what if i have already fucked up my life? not just now but way back in high school. i look at people i know now and all i see is how exceptional they are and how they going to get any job they want. (i.e. getting internships, jobs, working on research projects.) while here i am, struggling to find a part-time job for the semester.
maybe if i had done more things other than band, i wouldnt be in this position. maybe if i was smarter.
it just seems like the world here is out to get me. that im no longer good enough for a job that i had 2 years ago. i feel like ive grown as a person and understanding the world, but i also feel like america knows that i love europe and to punish me its doing everything it can to crush my soul.
i almost wish i had skipped going to college and just left for europe 6 years ago.