When will this all get easier
I am so ambivalent about life right now. Whether its good or bad. I think instead of acessing it I'll take each new day as it comes. I keep waiting though for people to let me down. I no longer trust that everyone has my own best interest at heart,nor do I assume people are considerate. I feel as though I have a hard time fitting in,because I don't fit in with any real group. I'm a dork,but not completely dorky, I have since of humor,but I like to be serious too. Really preppy and at other times artsy or gangsta. I can do it all. Why do I feel so awkward and inadequate? I thought those feelings went away in high school. I guess I didn't really find my niche until junior year in high school,so I expect the same in college. I jsut hope it all turns out in the end and that I won't have a lot of painful memories and regrets to swallow.