Taking the Gloves off!
So my latest journal posts have been vague and beating around the bush,but this one isn't. I'm just gonna come out and say how i feel...the gloves are coming off and i'm sorry if some people's feelings get hurt or they feel bad,but this is MY journal and so I have a right to say it... if you want to have a disscussion about what is said here,you're welcome to talk to me in private baout hte maters further..so here goes. I am really sick of people who say they are my friends and then whenever it comes down to hanging out...they never seem to invite me to hang out..it seems as though I am perfectly cool to party with,but God forbid asking or thinking about whether or not Audrey would like to do something with us is out of hte question..its when people tell you how they love you and spending time woth you but they rarely show it..I am always being left out...always..Its really funny how I am in a Fraternity and live in a suite and can't seem to find people who wantr to spend time eith me...now maybe it is me..and if that's the problem then that's all that has to be said and i'll go away. Because it really hurts my feelings when [people tell me abiout their hangout session and i'm not included...i mean i don't expect people to hang with me all the time,but damn...i rarely see the people who i call friends..so it appears i don't have any. I have been going up and down all week about whether or not my feelings are jsutified or if i am blowing things out of proportion or not. Well the fact is I don't think i am... I think people hang out with me when they feel its convienient and its really sad to feel like you're all alone in the world..i'm sick of the games....if you like me as your friend then sow it, spend time with me...meaningkess words are just that...meaningless. Sorry to come off as bitchy...that's not the point,the point is i'm hurt...and if i were trying to be bitchy i would call names...i'm not doing that. I'm trying to call your attention so that you know it hurts me,because this is one of the few times where i don't even feel i could just come out and say something..i've jsut played with it in my head all week and now i'm laying it out on the table...this is what i'm feeling..jsutified or not..this is what my problem is for all who want tio know.