Zoe Fanmix
So I've been working on this for quite some time- and now i'm gonna post it! yay! my first ever fanmix! Enjoy!
Turn My Grief To Grace
A Zoë Washburne fanmix
All the songs are uploaded individually here
1.When I Was A Young Girl - Feist
When I was a young girl I used to seek pleasure
When I was a young girl I used to drink ale
Out of the ale house down into the jail house
My body's salvating and hell is my doom
Ya, this song is actually about a plague. However- whenever I hear that first verse I think of Zoë and how she totally could bust your ass.
2.Not A Pretty Girl- Ani Difranco
I am not a pretty girl
that is not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distess
and I don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere
I am not an angry girl
but it seems like I've got everyone fooled
every time I say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling
and I am sorry
I am not a maiden fair
and I am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere
and generally my generation
wouldn't be caught dead working for the man
and generally I agree with them
trouble is you gotta have youself an alternate plan
and I have earned my disillusionment
I have been working all of my life
and I am a patriot
I have been fighting the good fight
and what if there are no damsels in distress
what if I knew that and I called your bluff?
don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down
whether or not you ever show up
I am not a pretty girl
I don't want to be a pretty girl
no I want to be more than a pretty girl
Couldn’t pick just one line or verse from this song - it all fits Zoë to a t. This is Zoë before and after the war.
3.Such a Common Bird - Ane Brun
I am a lone wolf
a beauty and a beast
both hunter and hunted
soft tounge and sharp teeth
I´m toned from my travels
yet raw from this road
as I drink from storm puddles
and the stories I´m told ….
We want freedom for ourselves
but we can´t give it to each other
We want peace between nations
yet we battle with our lovers
we´re blinded by billboards
and trying to get ahead
choking on ambition
and the words left unsaid
This is post war Zoë- just before she meets Wash.
4.Glory Box - Portishead
I'm so tired, of playing
Playing with this bow and arrow
Gonna give my heart away
Leave it to the other girls to play
For I've been a temptress too long
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be, a woman
I just wanna be a woman
From this time, unchained
We're all looking at a different picture
Thru this new frame of mind
A thousand flowers could bloom
Move over, and give us some room
For this is the beginning of forever and ever
Its time to move over... ...
This is the falling for Wash song! She’s almost hooked folks.
5.Your Tongue Like The Sun In My Mouth - Sophie B. Hawkins
I met a man who kicked my front door down
He blew in with the Santa Ana winds
And a half cocked hound
He fits my body like a one horse town
And I was drunk like a vagabond on his street
And I lay face down
And I rode his joy like a child on a merry-go-round
I was young in his eyes
I was sweet on his thighs
I was profound
I was shot like a free bird in flight
To the ground.
This one of the most sensual songs out there- so newlyweds.
6.Let Him Fly - Patty Griffin
And there ain't no talkin to this man
He's been tryin to tell me so
It took awhile to understand the beauty of just letting go
Cause it would take an acrobat, I already tried all that
I'm gonna let him fly
I'm gonna let him fly
I'm gonna let him fly
This may be a break up song- but for some reason it also reminds me of Zoë and Wash maybe after one of their first marital spats- Zoë has to come to terms with the fact that her man has another love- flying.
7.Erics Song - Vienna Teng
strange how you know inside me
I measure the time and I stand amazed
strange how I know inside you
my hand is outstretched toward the damp of the haze
…
strange how I fit into you
there's a distance erased with the greatest of ease
strange how you fit into me
a gentle warmth filling the deepest of needs
Another of those love songs that speaks so much of Wash and Zoë to me- they just. Fit. Together.
8.My Funny Valentine - Victoria Williams
My funny valentine
Sweet comic valentine
You make me smile with my heart
Your looks are laughable
Unphotographable
Yet youre my favourite work of art
But dont you change one hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentines day
This song IS Wash/Zoë. She is such a goddess and he is such a goofy fellow.
9.I Wasn’t Prepared- Eisely
But, i wasn't prepared for this
Oh, i wasn't prepared for this
Come, come back to me, my, my darling
Come, come back to me, my, my darling
And the events of the movie- you can tell in that moment when Zoë is frantic and screaming- you can tell she wasn’t prepared for that possibility.
10.My Skin- Natalie Merchant
O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this
I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
Angel sweet
Love of my life
O, I need this
THE saddest song in the world. Zoë became a wife during the year they were married- she changed, she adapted, and when that’s torn away from you- I imagine you feel like this. And as the 'first single' from this 'album' I will also include the music video i made for this song. Which you can find here
11.Farewell - Rosie Thomas
I miss the way you
I miss the way you danced with me
I miss the way you
I miss the way you danced with me
I never asked you for
A sailboat in the yard
Or that fancy dress to wear
Or a ceiling made of stars
And all I got was just this
Broken heart from you
Kinda self explanatory - I would call this point denial- or anger- she’s feeling resentment towards even Wash for leaving - she’s trying to revert back to how she was before Wash- apparently cold and unfeeling- but she is changed and she cant escape that.
12.It Just is - Rilo Kiley
Today is the day I realized
That I could be loved
It echoed through the park last night
He wasn't our son
He belonged to everyone
And this loss isn't good enough
For sorrow or insipiration
It's such a loss
For the good guys
Afraid of this life
That it just is
Cause everybody
Dies
See explanation for ‘Farewell’ she’s trying to accept Wash’s loss as though he was just another soldier shot down next to her in the trench.
13.Heal - Heather Nova
Fall for me, my southern cross, my star
Shine for me when love has gone too far
I've got you belly deep in me
Dig me out, can't leave this love for dead
Hand to mouth we're picking up the thread
I've got you belly deep in me
Just a little breath on the water now is all we need
Just a little strenght in our hearts
Enough to heal
Enough to heal
Just a little breath on the water now
Just a little strenght in our hearts,
Enough to heal
Enough to heal.
Zoë is coming to a point when she can go to their bunk and look at his dinosaurs without feeling that pang of guilt and twist in her stomach- she’s accepting that she lost the love of her life.
14.Grace - Kate Havnevik
no image for this one- see cover art ;)
I'm on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold
Dont know how
but Ill get by
Slowly pull myself together
Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace
I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world
Come what may
I wont fade away
But I know I might change
I absolutely love the line “I won’t fade away - but I know I might change” there is no other tragic love song like that - This is Zoë, she won’t let this be the end of her, she’s too strong for that- but she will be forever changed.
15. I Miss My Sky - Heather Nova
And sometimes
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes
Sometimes I wonder
Why we're always coming down
And why we need to touch the ground
And why I didn't keep on heading
right on up to heaven
I miss my sky
I look up at the birds flying overhead
My sentinel's true but the signals dead
It's been 500 days of hope and sorrow
500 nights with no tomorrow
And the poetry and the best of me
And the heart and the spirit and the sex of me
All fell into the azure sea
In the tailspin with the last of me
And my wings, and my song, all that I knew is dead and gone
I'm weak and tired but my will is strong
And my hope lives on, my hope lives on
I miss my sky
Lovely song that is pretty self explanatory. It’s actually about Amelia Earhart but it fits our Pilots widow so well.
16.Your Hand In Mine (Goodbye)
(Instrumental)
17.Airplane - Imogen Heap
Drifting though the atmosphere
And up into space
Leave behind the moon he's sitting
In his special place
Some flutterbies they enter and they
Play around in my soul
And once again part of me
Fills up to be whole
…
I can see heaven
Heaven down below
I look at heaven
And an angel who I know
I can see heaven
Heaven down below
I'm with my aeroplane
Just happy to be me again.
18. Bonus song: After All This Time - Simon Webbe
I didn’t want to include this in the actual mix ‘cause the singer is a guy and that kinda ruins the flow so- bonus track!
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