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Well I've been having a life in a way. School is doing fine. I know I complain about school(and everything else in my life), but i realized that I'm happy with being in school(it gives me something to do). Work is fine i guess, but there is one kid I can't stand, we'll just leave it at that.
But enough about that, I wanted to talk about something that has been on my mind for awhile. I'm talking about relationships. I know what you're thinking: either you're think who does Christine have a crush on this time or you're thinking oh no Christine is going to talk about how sad she is about being single. Well you are wrong! I want to talk about ways I need to fix my relationship with people.
Malcolm and I got in a heated decision about this awhile ago. Not getting into great details, it made me think a lot about myself and the way I view myself. And it made me realize something, I think nothing of myself. I care too much about other people that I do nothing for myself. I love it when my friends are happy, but I'm not making myself happy. And then it hit me, in order for me to love someone, I have to love myself first.
The second thing I realized is that I really love attention. Now many people think that I'm shy and that I don't talk much. Is that my way of getting attention, and what was I lacking as a child. Now i'm not going to say that I had a bad child hood, i'm just going to say that I was lacking social skills. I try to make myself look like a great person and make people sorry for me. People in the world love compliments, which I try to get as much as I can. Which is wrong for me to do. I should be compliments the people who need it more than I do.
I thought I would let that off my chest. Maybe the solution to this is to get more sleep, jk. Maybe I should take a journey or something. Like being a hippie or something...imagine me wearing all black....the goth(not really).
Well another thing that has been on my mind is Malcolm....he's moving. I know I know he's not leaving for awhile, but still the thought of him leaving is hard. But I feel that he should leave, for the reason that he needs to explore the world(as should I, but I don't have time). So I'm giving him my blessing to leave and I will cry an ocean on his last day in West Milford. But don't worry I want to spend as much time as i can with him.
Well my writing skills in wearing down. I must get sleep cause, no one should live on 5hours of sleep.
But enough about that, I wanted to talk about something that has been on my mind for awhile. I'm talking about relationships. I know what you're thinking: either you're think who does Christine have a crush on this time or you're thinking oh no Christine is going to talk about how sad she is about being single. Well you are wrong! I want to talk about ways I need to fix my relationship with people.
Malcolm and I got in a heated decision about this awhile ago. Not getting into great details, it made me think a lot about myself and the way I view myself. And it made me realize something, I think nothing of myself. I care too much about other people that I do nothing for myself. I love it when my friends are happy, but I'm not making myself happy. And then it hit me, in order for me to love someone, I have to love myself first.
The second thing I realized is that I really love attention. Now many people think that I'm shy and that I don't talk much. Is that my way of getting attention, and what was I lacking as a child. Now i'm not going to say that I had a bad child hood, i'm just going to say that I was lacking social skills. I try to make myself look like a great person and make people sorry for me. People in the world love compliments, which I try to get as much as I can. Which is wrong for me to do. I should be compliments the people who need it more than I do.
I thought I would let that off my chest. Maybe the solution to this is to get more sleep, jk. Maybe I should take a journey or something. Like being a hippie or something...imagine me wearing all black....the goth(not really).
Well another thing that has been on my mind is Malcolm....he's moving. I know I know he's not leaving for awhile, but still the thought of him leaving is hard. But I feel that he should leave, for the reason that he needs to explore the world(as should I, but I don't have time). So I'm giving him my blessing to leave and I will cry an ocean on his last day in West Milford. But don't worry I want to spend as much time as i can with him.
Well my writing skills in wearing down. I must get sleep cause, no one should live on 5hours of sleep.