worrying
People say I worry too much.
I probably do. I'm nervous about school, money, life, everything. I dunno.
I was gonna type something, but now I'm scared to. I'm so nervous about the future, I don't want to screw anything up. I know I will get to do lots of fun things, but at the same time, something feels empty about it all.
I have dreams and wishes that are so hard to bear right now. The fact that they may not come true, just...it just pounds on me. Patience, and loyalty. All I can do is be myself. And myself is telling me to feel this way.
I miss Staci a lot. Too much probably, but my past and other experiences just haunt me. I've gotten feelings for people before...and, it ended up in hardship. We're friends, no doubt. Just, we were more, and it was wonderful. It's wonderful now, just I want all of it. I really don't know what else to say. All I can do is have faith in myself, in her, and in us. And, it should work out how it should.
I feel so stupid. even worthless sometimes. am i depressed, bipolar, emo? what?
I think it's none of those. In all seriousness, something may be up, but I don't think that's it.
I've been getting more frustrated/whatever lately. I dunno if its a stage or something else. Just I am alone a lot, and I get to think about alot of thinsg. And some things just rile me up.
fuck, this is stupid. I'm done with this.
if you care, ask me directly, if not, that's fine. i may or may not divulge everythign anyways.
I probably do. I'm nervous about school, money, life, everything. I dunno.
I was gonna type something, but now I'm scared to. I'm so nervous about the future, I don't want to screw anything up. I know I will get to do lots of fun things, but at the same time, something feels empty about it all.
I have dreams and wishes that are so hard to bear right now. The fact that they may not come true, just...it just pounds on me. Patience, and loyalty. All I can do is be myself. And myself is telling me to feel this way.
I miss Staci a lot. Too much probably, but my past and other experiences just haunt me. I've gotten feelings for people before...and, it ended up in hardship. We're friends, no doubt. Just, we were more, and it was wonderful. It's wonderful now, just I want all of it. I really don't know what else to say. All I can do is have faith in myself, in her, and in us. And, it should work out how it should.
I feel so stupid. even worthless sometimes. am i depressed, bipolar, emo? what?
I think it's none of those. In all seriousness, something may be up, but I don't think that's it.
I've been getting more frustrated/whatever lately. I dunno if its a stage or something else. Just I am alone a lot, and I get to think about alot of thinsg. And some things just rile me up.
fuck, this is stupid. I'm done with this.
if you care, ask me directly, if not, that's fine. i may or may not divulge everythign anyways.