mom thoughts
for some reason i have been watching the the learning channel somewhat lately. and they have quite a few shows about families with alot of kids...
And it got me thinking about my own personal thought about not having kids of my own (biologically). And I realized that I think I would be a great mother, not only a great mother, but a bad ass mother. And it really saddens me to know that i will never go through that with a child. I have always said I would adopt first, before thinking of any other sort of thing. I think that the age of 7mo-4yrs would probably be my fav. basically because at around 7 months babies are more of a little personality. and before they go to kindergarten, they are with you at all times (if ur a stay at home mom) and you get to have these amazing little big people conversations with them. And they want to know everything. And I think that rocks. I just know that I could raise the best mannered, crazy, cool, intellectual little being. I dont know, I was watching a E! THS on Angelina Jolie (who i dont really like just because, kinda the way i just didn't like lindsay in high school, just because i am that way with people. I dont have to know you to not like you. but, those people are seldom (sorry had to use her as an example, because i was always annoyed by people who tried to get me to like her)) and she was talking about the way her life changed when she adopted her son maddox, and when she talked about him, i mean the look in her eyes and the way she was glowing was amazing. Like that cannot be faked, you can tell her kids are her world. seeing someone have that in them, just makes me feel sad. (i still dont kinda like her, she has kids...and kids are too cute, so I can't be too mean)
I know I'm in no position financially to adopt a child, but I just wonder if my life will ever be ready for that. I have alot of stuff I want to do in life, and it's not that having a child would be in the way, it's that if i were to have a child I would only do it if I could be a stay at home mom, at least untill they go to preschool. I don't want to be some half ass mom, (single working moms to get ur panties in a ball, I would just like to be completely involved in their first years) I want to be the mom that can do everything with them.
thats just something that has been on my mind.
Oh yes, Lance and I got into a discussion about 'religion'
Basically I believe in evolution, science, that fact that as humans we should look into ourselves. I dont think a single man made the world, I think there might have been a figure like him in past history, but he wasn't what the bible says. and why should we even believe the bible since it wasnt written by him. things that get translated lose meaning. I think I was created by my parents and I should thank them i'm alive not someone else. and i am the way i am based on my genes. the biology classes i took in college pretty much sealed the deal on my beliefs. biology classes are 99% of the reason i dont want to take the risk of having kids biologically, because the body has no memory. yes you can have a perfectly healthy child, and then you can have a child with missing chromosomes, extra chromosomes that cause different kids of syndromes in children. And I simply would die if I brought a child into the world that had to live their life that way. to this day i still have the images of kids with these syndromes i saw on the overhead in my mind.
on the other hand i don't look down on people who are religious, sometimes people have to believe in something to get through life, and all the power to them. I just choose to believe what i believe and i don't want to looked down upon either.
I do however have strong belief in alot of mayan beliefs. mainly because they used numbers to calculate everything (astrology! =] yay ya) and that is something that is fact. i dont however think human sacrifices are ok.
dont kill people unless you have to
dont kill animals unless you think there is no other way out of dying or someone you love dying. ( or for food) i dont however care for hunting. killing animals for a 'prize' is so dddddddddddddaaaaaammnnnnnnnn wrong!
my sister says i should work for peta cause of the way i feel about animal rights, the only problem is i eat meat.
i tired.
im a scorpio...deal with it or be on your way
And it got me thinking about my own personal thought about not having kids of my own (biologically). And I realized that I think I would be a great mother, not only a great mother, but a bad ass mother. And it really saddens me to know that i will never go through that with a child. I have always said I would adopt first, before thinking of any other sort of thing. I think that the age of 7mo-4yrs would probably be my fav. basically because at around 7 months babies are more of a little personality. and before they go to kindergarten, they are with you at all times (if ur a stay at home mom) and you get to have these amazing little big people conversations with them. And they want to know everything. And I think that rocks. I just know that I could raise the best mannered, crazy, cool, intellectual little being. I dont know, I was watching a E! THS on Angelina Jolie (who i dont really like just because, kinda the way i just didn't like lindsay in high school, just because i am that way with people. I dont have to know you to not like you. but, those people are seldom (sorry had to use her as an example, because i was always annoyed by people who tried to get me to like her)) and she was talking about the way her life changed when she adopted her son maddox, and when she talked about him, i mean the look in her eyes and the way she was glowing was amazing. Like that cannot be faked, you can tell her kids are her world. seeing someone have that in them, just makes me feel sad. (i still dont kinda like her, she has kids...and kids are too cute, so I can't be too mean)
I know I'm in no position financially to adopt a child, but I just wonder if my life will ever be ready for that. I have alot of stuff I want to do in life, and it's not that having a child would be in the way, it's that if i were to have a child I would only do it if I could be a stay at home mom, at least untill they go to preschool. I don't want to be some half ass mom, (single working moms to get ur panties in a ball, I would just like to be completely involved in their first years) I want to be the mom that can do everything with them.
thats just something that has been on my mind.
Oh yes, Lance and I got into a discussion about 'religion'
Basically I believe in evolution, science, that fact that as humans we should look into ourselves. I dont think a single man made the world, I think there might have been a figure like him in past history, but he wasn't what the bible says. and why should we even believe the bible since it wasnt written by him. things that get translated lose meaning. I think I was created by my parents and I should thank them i'm alive not someone else. and i am the way i am based on my genes. the biology classes i took in college pretty much sealed the deal on my beliefs. biology classes are 99% of the reason i dont want to take the risk of having kids biologically, because the body has no memory. yes you can have a perfectly healthy child, and then you can have a child with missing chromosomes, extra chromosomes that cause different kids of syndromes in children. And I simply would die if I brought a child into the world that had to live their life that way. to this day i still have the images of kids with these syndromes i saw on the overhead in my mind.
on the other hand i don't look down on people who are religious, sometimes people have to believe in something to get through life, and all the power to them. I just choose to believe what i believe and i don't want to looked down upon either.
I do however have strong belief in alot of mayan beliefs. mainly because they used numbers to calculate everything (astrology! =] yay ya) and that is something that is fact. i dont however think human sacrifices are ok.
dont kill people unless you have to
dont kill animals unless you think there is no other way out of dying or someone you love dying. ( or for food) i dont however care for hunting. killing animals for a 'prize' is so dddddddddddddaaaaaammnnnnnnnn wrong!
my sister says i should work for peta cause of the way i feel about animal rights, the only problem is i eat meat.
i tired.
im a scorpio...deal with it or be on your way