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I'm starting to get that feeling that I always get at this point in relationships. I start to feel like there are too many strings attached....too close for comfort. I get tired of feeling impossibly connected to certain people and feeling incapable of being able to seperate myself. I guess I've just never liked being linked to anything. I have to watch my mouth, watch my step. I'm constantly unbalanced, trying to please everyone at once. And this is about the time where I give up and do something to ruin it it. I make up some dumb excuse to help ease my conscience and then wreck it all. But I won't. I wont I won't this time. Because where has that gotten me in the past? Miserable and alone and regretting everything. Thats where. And I do legitimately like these people. Its just very tough for me to deal with being attached to anything. Accountable for anything. But its a fact of life.
Tonight I'm doing something very out of character. And I'm worried and I don't know if its such a good idea. And I don't know if I'm thinking that because it legitimately isn't, or just because I dont' usually do things like this.
Tonight I'm doing something very out of character. And I'm worried and I don't know if its such a good idea. And I don't know if I'm thinking that because it legitimately isn't, or just because I dont' usually do things like this.